Poll Do You Have a Bad Sense of Time?

[elizabethnueve]

I began feeling as though I wasn't sure where I was at times, after years of trauma during childhood. I thought it would get better. It got to where I could not realize the age of my family members. I kept thinking they were the same age as they were back in the days of the trauma. It took me a very long time to force myself to remember their current ages. I am able to do that now, but by now it has progressed to where I can't seem to mentally keep track of time. An hour could seem like ten minutes, so I was on warning at work, several times and feeling depressed and suicidal (better now) because it wasn't my fault that I couldn't remember..and once again, I was in a situation where I was about to be denied what I needed, because of something that wasn't my fault. I have never sought any therapy for this. I couldn't make myself seek out help. However, I think I have finally begun to mentally process a time frame again. I check the clock often, to remind myself that time still goes by, even though I often feel as if I'm dreaming. It's not easy. Does anyone have a method that might work better? ..Or even just a particular way of thinking? My boyfriend thinks I'm a huge lazy-ass or a very skilled procrastinator (LOL), but unfortunately, it's the result of feeling as if I'm only dreaming, and not real. As if there is no hurry, because it is only a dream. It's a very bad habit of mine. I can't get anything accomplished at home. Any tips guys?
I never have spoken to anyone about this stuff before.
I'm a little shaky about it, but I guess it can't hurt.

X,
Tara

I have never seen words typed the same as how I have always felt. You said everything is as a dream. I have been the same as you speak about since I believe first grade. I'm not sure exactly and it bothers me to not know the exact time. Time has always been issue for me.

Time moves slowly, but in reality it is quickly. Time is distorted for me for having gone through so many traumas. I make it a point to not know the age of my parents. Every time someone asks I cannot tell them. They are the same as when I was little, this is all that I care to know. They have not changed...they are same evil as before.

My driver's license says one age for me, and is what I had to put for the birthdate to sign up here. However, I am not in acceptance of this. I feel that when I write this date it is not correct.

Many times during the days and weeks I am different ages. When I am scared, time goes backwards and I am little. Most of the time my voice changes, and I reach for my Mickey Mouse toy for comfort.

If I'm angry, then I feel bigger, but still am uncertain and cannot 'feel' as other people do this 'time' thing.

As you said that you felt like minutes, but it is sometimes an hour that has passed. This happens the same for me. I can have much time when trying to get ready to go somewhere. I can tell myself when I want to leave my home, but it never happens. Always, always I have left between 10 to 15 minutes later than what I wanted. Lateness had caused me to lose a job because I couldn't help myself.

Nobody understands the fear for arriving on time or arriving early. Time I do not like. Feeling afraid just now and need to go. I am praying for all of us here.

 

[Anna]

I keep a calender with all my appoinments on it. I have also bought a digital watch which shows the date and time.

 

[Reclusive]

My fiance just kind of accepts that when I go out, there's no predicting when I'll come back. That's my whole reason for having a cell phone - so he can call and check on me or if I run into trouble I can call for help. AND on occasion I use it for the time.

I have a calendar program in my Thunderbird that let's me schedule things and it has a pop up reminder function. SO useful!

 

[Mercy]

I know that I have trouble remembering important dates, what day it is, sometimes the end of my own sentence.

Just yesterday, I had a conversation with my younger daughter 22, about something she had said that embarrassed me. (OOps, day before yesterday.) I said I had hurt feelings because it was about an stupid mistake I had made and she said it in front of two of her friends we had never met. Now in hindsight, I think maybe she was trying to be light heartedly teasing. I brought it up again at dinner that night totally having forgotten that we had talked at lunch.

Wow, did that piss her off...yeah, I get that and it makes me sad because it seems and maybe is the truth that I won't be able to have a normal adult relationship with her.

At least my H understands and backed me up. Yup, It is certainly possible. He has a lot of experience with it. In fact it happens all the time. revolving alters?....what a confusing dance we dance.

 

[cat]

Even with a calender, diary & email reminders i still forget. what i need is something that helps me to remember after i've read them!

 

[jo may]

I'm useless with time no one expects me to be on time. My husband logs everything and makes sure I go to whatever I have to go to. I think I would rather be a bit late than I don't have to sit in a waiting room or wait for a friend to arrive.

 

[AngelaMarie]

It is hard to follow time for me. I forget sometimes what day it is or what year it is. I can't remember important dates. The only way I keep track of it is through the computer and cell phone. The time is always there.

 

[kpop]

Something I have recently noticed is that I don't have good sense of time. in fact, I have awful sense of time...

I have noticed that if I don't actively keep track of the time I can miss an entire day. I'll think it's Monday when it's actually Tuesday and it confuses me alot. There are times when I feel an hour has gone by when it has been 5 hours. Or I'll feel like a 1 hour has gone when it only has been 15 minutes. It's not even because of what I'm doing, these things happen wile I'm doing the same thing.