Documentation of Overwhelmed Feeling

[ahershey]

I was in a good place and so I began school. I also work and o am a single mom. Then, a whole bunch of crap happened. Sick grandma got evicted, and I am the next of kin and had to help her. Then I was homeless and then I became overwhelmed.

I felt the episode coming on. I had a bit of disassociation, and sound distortion. And now it's like the whole month of November is a blur of events that are all happening in my mind at the same time, I can't remember much, I haven't been able to study and now I'm doing damage control. I am totally going to make sure that I have a disability status when it comes to college. I obviously cannot handle life as a normal person. I guess that's all
What I really want to get out is how a whole month can be a strange blur I can barely remember, but also I can totally remember, it's just all chronologically happening in my brain like it all happened at the same time. I hope some one understands what I am talking about and how disorienting it is

 

[Teasel]

I think I do understand. Have you read the PTSD stress cup explanation? It sounds like you were managing studying on top of work and being a single mum ok. A d then you had some really huge additional stress in having to look after your Gran and becoming homeless. That's a hell of a lot extra!

As for your memory of the past month - when memories aren't traumatic they can be filed away nice and neatly and time stamped and we can recall them quite easily. When its traumatic the memories stay fragmented, not neatly filed away and not time stamped, so they still feel current.

Not saying this has happened. Does it resonate for you?