Poll Does Anybody Have Displaced Internal Rage?

[Invisible-Guy]

Some times I'm ready to pounce for no reason. It scares me because of my training. I really don't want to hurt anybody, but I'm so full of anger for no reasom whatsoever. Klonapin doesn't really help much either.

 

[AngelKeeperJ]

I have a hard time being angry outwardly with someone. I grew up in a home where NO emotions were talked about, or shown.Therefore, the anger ends up inside me, and it can get VERY overwhelming. Being angry at myself leads me down a 'dangerous' path.

I am learning though, that I can be angry, or someone can be angry at me, and I don't have to hate myself. Anger, along with all the other emotions, can be worked through with words versus shutting down.

 

[discarded]

My sufferer has said that he is scared that he might really hurt one day if can't control his internal anger and just snaps.

 

[treble.maker]

I'm with AngelKeeperJ in that I only really get angry with myself, and very rarely do I find that I am angry with someone else. If I happen to get angry, though, it almost always seems to be at the wrong person, or sort of just out of proportion to the situation. I think this has to do with the fact that a lot of us internalize things.

 

[maddog]

Displaced anger is something I really struggle with. As Treble said, the only times I seem able to express any are when it's directed at myself, or when it's misdirected at something trivial, or undeserving. Healthy, proportionate and properly directed anger seems to be one of the hardest emotional challenges for me.

Maddog

 

[Anna]

Yes. Sometimes I feel so angry like I am going to explode. I have found a positive way to release it. Sit ups and working out, or going for a brisk walk. Once I break into a sweat and the endorphins kick in, it feels like a release.

If I notice the bull is about to rage so to speak, I keep away from people. Nothing worse than taking it out on innocent parties!

 

[Invisible-Guy]

Same here, I avoid people so I can't hurt anybody.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

Rage was expressed by my parents and we were not allowed to show any anger. I had alot of displaced anger as a kid. I used to go off and go ballistic destroying what ever was in my path.

Not anymore. I get angry at games being played. And very few times do I explode. I have experience alot of healing. I am more mellow. But cross my boundries and I get very proactive with healthy anger.

 

[Abstract]

I voted "No" as I am assuming you meant to ask if we feel we are at risk of directing frightening anger at others without it being valid. You may want to clarify that possibly.

I absolutely do struggle with displaced anger but like some others have said it is only aimed at me. I thought I had never felt anger until about 5 years ago.

 

[Srain]

I voted "Yes". Rage has been my best friend most of my life and it can be a serious enemy out in public with the diagnosis I have and the police involved. This is something I have tried to school myself on during my recovery process. It's frightening and yet it's a motivator to keep me moving forward.

My rage makes me feel powerful and in control if "threatened", it's the only weapon I have ever felt I have had in order to protect myself. While in therapy I was presented with the theory that rage might actually render me weaker and that self-control gave me power....I laughed, it was absurd to me. Why? Because I have always gotten a scared response from people when I've tipped into the "fk it and fk you" stage of insanity. I have felt that fear from others that I felt when I was powerless and it was great, in all honesty. I hit the stages where I had no concern for myself let alone anyone else.

The problem came in when I was met with restraints and medication that rendered me even more powerless. My rage continued but I couldn't move. I was faced with myself and again asked which was more powerful...self-control or rage?

My past tells me rage, it's gotten me out of scraps with individuals that meant me harm but in my life today it would only do me the harm. In my recovery I remind myself that rage is not my enemy but the very thing that did save my life at one time but I no longer need to survive. I thank it and put it away while working on new techniques to live. Anger is healthy for me in keeping my boundaries but it's a far cry from the red blind rage that I used to tear people up with in my past. Them or me is no longer an option.

It's hard work and I just went through a tunnel last weekend where I felt the pull of it tempting me. I power walk too, step away, stay away from people when I feel the urge to take people on, it's always there waiting to step out of the shadows when I feel threatened.

Good topic.

 

[Zef]

Mine mostly comes out when I see someone being bullied. Too often, I get involved and try to back the bully down, whether it is a parent bullying a kid in the grocery store or someone being too aggressive at the local watering hole. It never has gotten physical. . .my rage-induced 1000-yard-stare seems to be able to scare the crap out of most people and they back down.

 

[Privateer]

I did for years, though it seems to have gone away now. While I felt I became unwell very recently, my doc reckons I initially got PTSDified when I was a kid. Which is a bit of a relief, in a way, as I just thought I was a horrible crazy person.

I do tend to get into fights, but usually because I'm trying to stop somebody commiting a crime. I'm a cop's son. And an idiot, apparently.