Today was the last day at work for a while. Sorry if I can't write full sentences while I struggle with this.
I do much better within a routine. As a routine is ending, I sort of don't know what to do? I feel a sort of big ??? inside me.
So I got a headache that started out small and became more and more overwhelming. As it did so, I felt also less and less "Me" and more and more "someone else."
My husband thinks I have DID or something close to it. He says a headache like that happens often during switching.
It felt like someone else was an opportunist, trying to take over due to the situation at work shifting as well. I did not feel able to have any control. I was not in control of what I was saying to people; and I kept talking and talking like a chatterbox.
I remember going through this same personality coming out when being around my grandparents or being excited around new people.
I just can't be clear at this time what I'm dealing with or how to address it. I was feeling better, and then watching TV, something triggered a panic attack that I'm still feeling, but I don't know what it was, only the sound of the string bass. It's like it's a sound that bothers someone else, so I cannot access the issue at all, only my body is reacting. My heart is racing. I don't know how to figure it out.
Is this something that those with DID have to deal with?
I only seem to run into this when I have touched (literally touched a small amount) of alcohol. And then "switching" type of things happens a couple days later. I guess I can have 0 alcohol anymore.
I do much better within a routine. As a routine is ending, I sort of don't know what to do? I feel a sort of big ??? inside me.
So I got a headache that started out small and became more and more overwhelming. As it did so, I felt also less and less "Me" and more and more "someone else."
My husband thinks I have DID or something close to it. He says a headache like that happens often during switching.
It felt like someone else was an opportunist, trying to take over due to the situation at work shifting as well. I did not feel able to have any control. I was not in control of what I was saying to people; and I kept talking and talking like a chatterbox.
I remember going through this same personality coming out when being around my grandparents or being excited around new people.
I just can't be clear at this time what I'm dealing with or how to address it. I was feeling better, and then watching TV, something triggered a panic attack that I'm still feeling, but I don't know what it was, only the sound of the string bass. It's like it's a sound that bothers someone else, so I cannot access the issue at all, only my body is reacting. My heart is racing. I don't know how to figure it out.
Is this something that those with DID have to deal with?
I only seem to run into this when I have touched (literally touched a small amount) of alcohol. And then "switching" type of things happens a couple days later. I guess I can have 0 alcohol anymore.