Don't know what to do about work

[LilyRose]

i have been home allmost a year in 2017. about 5 months ago i started work again because i wanted it. i found out i had ptsd around the same time and i had to go in therapy. i also had to follow a class for work. weeks of studying next to work and a new therapy. i just finished the class and my therapist gave up on me. my work is pushing me to work more so i can fit in a job description and they can place me. i need it, but i can't keep up. before i went back to work, i was doing ok..i was in control. now i feel like i lost everything ive worked for.. again. i am failing.. again. tomorrow my boss comes in to talk to me like she does every few weeks. i don't know what to say. i am working 4 days for 6 hrs now and next week i should be working 5 days. been having very bad migraine-like headaches for days now. had more panic attacks at work lately, and the feeling off allmost passing out and my heartrate going crazy for no reason... when i get out off bed i feel like waking up with "parkinson" because my hands are shaking so bad.
but if i tell her i m not doing ok... i am afraid of what happens next. if they give up on me i will lose my job and i can't affort that.
but what happens if i keep pushing?
i don't want to go back to work tomorrow, just want to sleep.. but i can't even do that...

 

[Friday]

Sometimes sleep is exactly what’s needed.

Especially when going through a big transition like school & Therapy ending at the same time.

How’d it go, today? Did you end up calling in sick to take a day to recover from all the changes, or heading on in for the meeting with your boss?

 

[LilyRose]

Sometimes sleep is exactly what’s needed.

Especially when going through a big transition like school...

I don't get enough sleep... stupid nightmares and waking up every 2hrs...
Therapy wasn't working for me so my therapist ended it. But my doc says i still need help so its not over yet.
I did go to work today. Had to go to a party after.. way to much... but i survived.
I talked to my boss but messed it up again. She was all happy and talking fast so i did'nt say anything. At all...