My ex put up with my numbing, inability to love, and PTSD for 2 years and he loved me through it. February of this year I guess he finally fell out of love or was at the end of his rope and decided to end things. We were civil to each other but I quit talking to him. He now has another girlfriend.. It hurt.. But I dreamt about him last night. I miss him. I miss traveling to see him on the weekends. I miss the city he lives in. I miss the comfort and peace he brought me. I am sitting at work with tears in my eyes. I'm so lonely but I can't connect with anyone. I just want to heal from all this. The breakup pretty much reset the clock on the numbing and ptsd.. I feel as if I have officially started over again with the healing process.
*sigh* I live for the weekends.. I just want the weekend to come so I can see my friends, shoot guns, ride my motorcycle... Do all the things that I still can't find a passion for but gets me away from reality temporarily.
I probably posted this in the wrong category/forum... Please move if need be. Sorry :(
*sigh* I live for the weekends.. I just want the weekend to come so I can see my friends, shoot guns, ride my motorcycle... Do all the things that I still can't find a passion for but gets me away from reality temporarily.
I probably posted this in the wrong category/forum... Please move if need be. Sorry :(
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