Embarrassing Goals Thread. Join In.

[Epe]

Hi. There are some things I would benefit from posting goals for. For encouragement and accountability. But they are way too embarrassing. So I going to attempt to do so anonymously. I hope I am not alone.

So to start. I struggle with brushing my teeth as often as I should. Especially evening. So to start small and realistic, my goal is to at least use medicated mouth wash every evening.

 

[Ito]

It's not too embarrassing I guess, just ridiculous, I need to stick to a set bedtime. I'm screwing up my sleep routine and that's never healthy. I feel like a petulant child trying to stay up past their bedtime with more and more stupid excuses for doing it. By at least 11pm, I need to be in bed, tired or not.

 

[Towaju]

Good idea for a thread. I need a regular bedtime too. Sigh, easier said than done. :(

But my real, true, most embarrassing goal is to have an orgasm without thinking about my father. I've been trying to face my fears, and not avoid the intrusive thoughts I'm having of him. So I'm having some pretty traumatic orgasms right now, very sad, but... feel like I'm releasing old energy. I'm praying I'm purging it, and I'll get to the point of being able to not have him haunting me during arousal anymore.

 

[Epe]

Ito, me too!

Towaju ,sorry to hear that. Sorry to not comment more.

I did OK the first 2 nights and used mouthwash. Last night I didn't. I want to start making sure I brush but this is a first step. So mouthwash every evening.

 

[Kuhodom]

Towaju, I have a similar goal. I would like to be able to orgasm without having to recreate abusive/shaming scenarios in my head.

I would also like to stop skin picking, which I have been making some slow progress on. It's embarrassing and inconvenient to have to cover myself all the time so that people don't see my scabs and sores.

 

[Suva]

Towaju and Kuhodom- me three. Trying to orgasm without thinking about those who abused me. To be able to respect and enjoy my body. Also, Kuhodom, wow, I thought I was on my own with the skin picking. I have a strange skin condition where my skin goes all kind of lumpy and I cannot help but pick at it. Not being covered in sores is a goal of mine too.

I would like to stop sucking my thumb. Been trying for years but when I'm stressed or upset, I go back to it.

 

[Vikige]

I second most of the above, the teeth-brushing but I'd also like to improve my general hygiene - if I have to see people I make the effort, but can't seem to muster up the drive/strength to do it just for myself. I'd also like the ability to be anything other than sexually numb without thinking about things from my past and I also think I should probably stop cutting.

 

[Ehora]

Skin picking here too and I just can not control it! I pick at my face too so its not exactly something I can hide. People must know but no body comments. My aim is to just spend LESS time picking. I think its unrealistic to say stop.

Also embarrassing thing I would like to change is have the courage to leave my daughter to sleep on her own, in her own room. I am scared for her even though I know she is safe, there is no threat here just my fear. She would be so fine to not have mummy in her room but I am not!

I wonder how many ptsd suffers do skin pick and hair pull?

 

[Tojesu]

I want to be comfortable enough to enjoy being sexual with someone and feel comfortable enough to be able to have an orgasm with someone. Instead of feeling shut down and not feeling anything.

 

[Fuke]

My goal is to shower at least once a day instead of every other. I probably wouldn't even do that if I didn't make that my goal. Better then it was a year ago. I guess I should be thankful for that.