Emotional Numbing

[Anna]

Still have it and it has been 2 years now.

On a positive side, I sleep really well, even the anger has gone. I am really calm and able to stay level headed. I just do not experience any emotions. I still care about important things, but more on a logical level rather than emotional. I feel almost like a vulcan!

I wonder if my emotions have just been spent? I also find being around other people annoying. People have begun to annoy me with their idle chit chat, they all seem so egocentric caring only for themselves, money or material gain.

I do feel enlightened as I am able to see completly logically now untainted by emotions. My trauma was nearly two decades ago now.

Has anyone else experienced this? I really do feel like a vulcan!

 

[JustBe]

I do *waving hand wildly!* I've been numb for months. Sometimes I miss a good cry or giggle fit but mostly it's a relief not to be in pain (emotional).

 

[bell]

Numb is my default. The shield goes up when I want to protect myself from feeling too much and only comes down when I feel really, really safe. Thankfully, and with therapy, I'm getting better at this (and can see that it exists, I used to not see that I was numb to everything!), but sadly, I know all too well how this feels, too.

 

[TwoDee2ThreeDee]

@Anna - did you have any medication changes 2 years ago?

 

[Anna]

did you have any medication changes 2 years ago?

No I didn't.

 

[TwoDee2ThreeDee]

@Anna - the reason I asked is because I'm currently on a med that seems to have the same effect. I have to say that I prefer the calm rather than the hypervigilance. How do you feel about it?

 

[Anna]

In my case I am still hypervigilant. It is the emotions. I just feel numb all the time and unable to feel sadness, joy, it is like being a robot.

I am not on any medication.