Ever Thought You Were Cured, Only To Find...?

[Deleted member 1860]

Well, since you asked...

What I meant was that some people, like myself, do not move linearly towards being healed. I suffered for many years before my symptoms skyrocketed, and now I'm doing better. Thus, I've been up and down. Back and forth. However you want to look at it.

 

[fin]

Me too ScaredOfLOnely ...I do understand...you are not so alone in that here now. I hope you may see that you can, and will perhaps, now be able to manage this PTSD thing we got here. But you gotta try, please read as much as you can and try to begin, I really do think and hope it might help you as it has helped me.

Take care

~fin

 

[ronsplace68]

Comes and goes

I turned 60 on the 7th of this month and did not take it well. I also have work stress as I was not sure if our program would stay open, realized some of my staff did not know the proper way to handle a violent patient (I a director of an inpatient psychiatric facility), and some one took an important file out of my office I can not find. I became very angry, felt helpless and hopeless, isolated, anxious, and had trouble sleeping. I am a Viet Nam vet. This is the worst I have felt since I watched the troops go into Iraq. I also am a Licensed Clinical Social Worker and have had a lot of therapy from the Vet Center program and individual therapy. I also lost a 19 year old family member 6 months ago.

Reality is that symptoms due come out at times. The good thing is that they pass and one can take control of ones behavior. With all the stress and life change, I still will not allow myself to make poor decisions when I am in pain, especially anger, my worst symptom I have battled. I have a good life, a great wife (also a social worker), a good job helping people most others view only a crazy, not people in pain, good friends, and four cats. When I put these last few months in perspective, I is a long way from wanting to kill myself in my 30s because I could not get Viet Nam out of my head. Hang in there and realize how important you are. You are not your trauma, you survived your trauma, and are in pain today. It gets better.

 

[fin]

Reality is that symptoms due come out at times. The good thing is that they pass and one can take control of ones behavior. With all the stress and life change, I still will not allow myself to make poor decisions when I am in pain, especially anger, my worst symptom I have battled. ..

. When I put these last few months in perspective, I is a long way from wanting to kill myself in my 30s ..

. Hang in there and realize how important you are. You are not your trauma, you survived your trauma, and are in pain today. It gets better.

I am in agreement with you Ron, I have moved way past wanting to die, it is difficult to know how to express so much of this, and I also try not to make any decisions while in place of hurt, anger and confusion. I am not sure how good it is to make any like that, so maybe I try to sit back more than I should. I just know for me, that isolating some of this pain and confusion has been difficult. It has also been hard to know how to handle letting it out and making decisions, I know I froze and made none fo a period of time. And I dont hitnk that has been helpful to me either.. I just know that in times of crisis I have been much better I have thrived on getting through things and my ability to cope pushed. The thing is now I am loosing some fo that also and it is difficult to rememeber that I survived some things.

I am comforted to be reminded that it does get better.

PLease know I understand and I am sorry for your lose.
PLease take care and know you are not alone here, and as you have said here Ron it gets better. Thankyou for reminding me of this.

~fin