Hey, Lisa. Thanks for posting, this is a great thread. Like so many others here, I too lament the loss of the energy I had before the BIG BANG, as I call it. My days usually started at 7:30am, and ended around 10 or 11pm. Work was followed by all kinds of social activities, etc. Whenever I flew home, I would be astounded that everyone there was in bed by 10pm.
I still do not believe that I have reached the full potential of my recovery, as my full-blown PTSD only began about 6 months ago. I do try to push myself, meaning expose myself to "new" situations (i.e. like going to the grocery store alone!). But when I'm at my limit (anywhere from 1-3 hours), I become extremely exhausted. This takes on a physical presence as well, as my face becomes drawn and everyone tells me I look exhausted or really tired. Once I notice how exhausted I am, if I cannot find a way to rest/relax that leads to anxiety and lately even body memories. I do not necessarily need to sleep, just chill out in a safe place.
While I am not the same person I used to be, nor can I do all of the same things I used to do, I have to say I am trying to learn to appreciate taking life a little more slowly. Sip it instead of chug it down. I walk a little slower, I talk a little slower, and I rest a lot more. It turns out that I'm not going to be a superstar with limitless energy, but I try my best to value what I have and what I do offer. I have to say, I admire you for being able to work a full-time job; I simply cannot imagine it!
Yoga & exercise help me as well, but I cannot do them when I'm suffering a setback and/or increasing my meds.
Best,
racha