I had a group therapy weekend this weekend, my T was a facilitator, and there was another T there facilitating. The other T announced that she was retiring (her and T ended up saying their ages), so T is only a year younger than this other T who is retiring. And cue the fear. I just got my official DID diagnosis, so now T knows her feeling was right and to start treating it that way. It took me a while to get comfortable with T, and not to run from her when I got scared, and also to really really trust her. My fear is that she is going to retire in the next few years and that my parts will just have started to trust her, and work with her, and then she will retire and I will have to try to start all over again with someone else.
Problem being that there are no therapists that do the kind of work she does, not many in my province anyways, and she's the only T that has ever helped me, that I've ever connected with. I know I'm jumping ahead and worrying about something that hasn't happened yet, and hasn't even been announced. This other therapist's announcement this weekend just really triggered this fear of my own T retiring.
I'm embarrassed to mention this to T. Is anyone else scared of this happening?
Problem being that there are no therapists that do the kind of work she does, not many in my province anyways, and she's the only T that has ever helped me, that I've ever connected with. I know I'm jumping ahead and worrying about something that hasn't happened yet, and hasn't even been announced. This other therapist's announcement this weekend just really triggered this fear of my own T retiring.
I'm embarrassed to mention this to T. Is anyone else scared of this happening?