Feel Like A Failure

[Casey_03]

After making it into Donetsk safely despite numerous warnings not to come here and horror stories about how I'd supposedly be abducted or detained, i now have to leave because I have been denied accreditation to work here. I feel like absolute crap and like a failure because of this. I was so determined to show both sides of the conflict and so proud of my own determination and now it has all gone up in flames and I have nothing to show for it.

 

[Sandstone]

Why like a failure? It wasn't your fault you were denied accreditation. I understand feeling frustrated, but please don't use this as a tool to beat yourself with.

I'm sorry you weren't able to stay, I was looking forward to hearing what you had to say about a serious situation

 

[LuckyDuck]

This happens a lot in areas of war. One moment you're in, the next, you're not. It was a high-risk area to go. It sucks, this has been a big project for you and it feels awful having to leave. It doesn't, however, indicate anything of you being a failure. Think of how far you went. The determination is real! You can be proud of that still! It's still there within you. It's the real deal and you felt it.

 

[scout86]

and I have nothing to show for it.

Think about that. Do you REALLY have nothing to show for it? You didn't meet anyone or see anything that would make any kind of an interesting story? It seems like I remember you mentioning some interesting experiences. Maybe you don't have a big story about the over all situation, but you might have a more intimate story or 2 about individual experiences. Sometimes the idea that these things involve real people pretty much like you and me, who just happen to be stuck in a bad place. They don't DESERVE to be there and most of them didn't wish to be there. Think about it, maybe you can come up with something you can do with what you can actually get.

Why did they refuse you accreditation? There might be a story there, even. Who doesn't want what reported?

You're not a failure. This just wasn't, maybe, the place you were meant to be at this moment in time. You still gave it a try and did what you could. Your intended mission may have failed, but that doesn't make YOU a failure.

 

[The Albatross]

It is an experience though frustrating that you have managed through... and not an experience for the faint of heart either gal. Take care, you stepped up to the plate that was a big deal.