Sufferer Feeling alone and like I don’t have a place in this world. CPTSD & just finished IOP

[Meredith Grant]

Hi everyone!
I’m sort of new here. I read a few posts a couple months ago but I wasn’t ready to commit myself to sharing with others. I just came out of IOP following a crisis filled anniversary time of year. The hardest thing for me since leaving IOP has been the loss of community. I don’t know anyone in my non-therapy life with mental health problems like me so it can make an already lonely experience even more lonely. I’m hoping this post (which is hard for me to even write) is going to be the first step in feeling understood again.
I have CPTSD and I’ve been in therapy for almost a year now. My most recent trauma brought up a lot of things from my childhood that I never properly dealt with so now I feel like I’m drowning in all of the bad things that have ever happened to me. My baseline is very high anxiety but I’m currently on my way out (hopefully) of a huge depressive episode during which I attempted suicide. No one knows about this other than my therapist and psychiatrist which is proving to be a painful thing to live with on my own.

Not sure how much I’ll be able to get myself to post but since I’m going to try and at least read some posts on here everyday I wanted to introduce myself. :)

 

[Justmehere]

Welcome to the forums!

 

[ILoveLife]

Welcome :)

 

[MrMoonlight]

Really glad you found us @Meredith Grant . I hope you continue to get better from the depressed episode. We share a lot of similarities in that I just got out of IOP and have really nobody outside that little group of people when it ended. I managed to stay in touch with a couple of them but it's far from a support system.

I have found a terrific sense of community here, hope and know you can find it here too.

 

[littleoc]

You can share a little at a time and take however long you need. You’ll know when you’re ready — you seem to already know.

Glad you found us :)

 

[Invisible Fire]

Welcome to this site.

 

[Sandstone]

Welcome. I hope being here will help you feel part of a community. I've had some fantatstic support from people here

I'm afraid I don't know what IOP means. I'm in thed UK and it's not an abbreviation we have here. It sounds as though it might be some sort of admitted care. If so, my expereience was that adjusting takes time, and it was useful to me to set a planned structure on the day.

 

[Strangelongtrip]

Welcome!