Supporter Feeling Broken

[woo]

Hi, I've never joined a forum before but I'm feeling so lost at the moment that I wanted to give it a try. My partner is a paramedic and prior to that was in the forces. He has complex ptsd and last week he sent me a message at work saying he loved me and then took an overdose with alcohol. We spent 3 days in hospital and although he says he is now glad it wasn't successful it was a very serious attempt. I feel so broken and am struggling to deal with the mixed emotions. I love him more than anything but feel so angry and betrayed, I'm terrified he will do it again and can barely get through a day without falling apart. Nobody knows what happened and keeping it all inside is so hard, he's the person I would normally turn to when I need to talk buy how do I tell him how I feel when I'm scared that doing so will make him feel even more worthless

 

[Bloomy]

Sending supportive warm thoughts and welcome to this forum

 

[woo]

Thank you x

 

[EveHarrington]

Welcome! :hug:

 

[woo]

Thank you x

 

[Mytime]

Hi welcome to the forum:) I know how it feels to keep everything inside.

You said no one knows. Is that about the suicide attempt or PTSD ?
I know how hard it is to keep PTSD a secret. Here you have a place to talk and feel supported. Just know your no longer alone :)

 

[woo]

No one knows about the suicide attempt, he's very open about the ptsd. It's the first time he's ever done it but thankfully his gp is taking it very seriously and it does look like he may be able to get some counselling. My fears are still there every time I leave him but I also have hope now, thank you so much for your support xxx

 

[Mytime]

Hi Woo, glad things seem alittle better. Sending hugs and support.

 

[Richie]

this is what it takes to get counselling in this country? Absolutely disgusting