Feeling Like I'm Sealed In A Vacuum.

[nomedic1]

This has been going on for a long time.

 

[nomedic1]

I have a good relationship with my kids, but there is this vacuum between my partner and myself, some of it is from the past, and I guess she has had enough of waiting for me to get better.

 

[Abstract]

Could you explain what the emotional vacuum feels and looks like in more detail nomedic and give examples of things that have happened?

 

[ms spock]

When we are down nomedic1 we project our feelings onto people around us and we see things in a negative light. We miss the positives.

 

[ms spock]

When you feel bad about yourself or are having a low self esteem time we can continue to focus on the negative. Is there one nice thing that you can do for your partner today? Perhaps get her a card to thank her for her support. Perhaps try to start to catch the small positives?

 

[nomedic1]

Worth a try.

 

[nomedic1]

Was asked what I wanted, explained, was told to rather get better

 

[Everhopeful]

Sometimes people don't have the insight to understand. And they cannot deal with the lack of clarity as to how long it takes a person to find healing. Or to deal with the reality that healing may stretch over the course of the rest of your lives. It gets so complicated with children involved. Perhaps a trial period of separation if this is at all possible? Without animosity, if possible, for the sake of the kids.

 

[nomedic1]

I don't know what to do, this is soul destroying.

 

[EverOnly358]

I know just how you feel nomedic1. My marriage is in a terrible state, and I'm just so tired of it all. I'm starting to admit to myself that it's just never going to work. I blame myself all the time for my terrible behavior because of PTSD (yelling, saying mean things, flying off the handle when triggered, isolating myself, being inconsolable). I feel like I can't be loved, like no one should love me. At the same time, I'm so angry because my husband is never there for me. If I confront him about it, he says that he washes the dishes and does the laundry and everything when I can't get out of bed, and then he gets all mad at me for not appreciating all he does. But I do appreciate those things and tell him often. Does that mean I can't be mad at the fact he won't let me talk about my traumas (he says he doesn't like to see me upset and changes the subject, and has done that for 16 years), he won't sit with me when I'm upset, and he continuously triggers me, even though I've told him in great detail what triggers me and how to avoid it and I've done that again and again and again. I can't remember one good thing we've done together or one nice thing (besides chores and taking care of the kids) he's done for me in years. I ask him for help, and he says he's going to help me but never does. I'm just so done.

I'm happy to talk with you nomedic1. I'm so sorry you're going through so much. I do understand.

 

[nomedic1]

Thanks D123 the same offer for you, if you want to talk I'm here.