Feeling suicidal

[ladee]

You are not alone. We really do understand and are here with you.
Gentle hugs.

 

[mumstheword]

Witnessing and sending support(((((hugs)))) too. Glad you are hanging in there with us. I've been at that breaking point many, many times but always found some way to endure, make some kind of coping plan and grit my teeth til things eased up. So I totally get it!
I found its usually a sign that something's gotta give. Something in my life is utterly intolerable and I need to address it, make a plan to get some support and hang in there 'til I do.
I agree do some kind-to-you and pleasurable if you can. Give yourself permission to have a break. Broken is not the end, it just means healing time and assistance is required.
Good luck! This site is a life saver for me too and for so many others! You are not alone with this!

 

[freebird]

I went back to thinking about why I am feeling so overwhelmed. Dh and I are battling the flu, the cats need medical care, and I was worried that my class with my student today would be slow. But, we managed to do really well today. Another thing accomplished.

I am going to try and start over again tomorrow. Your guys' support gave me some relief. Thanks for being here.

Good morning over there, and goodnight here!

 

[Deleted member 37085]

Good Night over there now...and Good Morning over here! I'll look up your Trauma Diary now. Love and Peace.

 

[freebird]

I underwent 16 grueling E.M.D.R. Therapy sessions

@JadesJewel I really appreciate you taking the time telling me about what you've been going through. I've started to read your trauma diary and my god how strong you are. Just want to send some peace to you.

 

[Deleted member 37085]

Thank you...I'm here...will be checking in during each day...reach out when you need to. Hugs.

 

[freebird]

I don't know if this is going to be a good week. Last night I had a horrible nightmare that had me waking up shaking in terror. My dh was already up and I just....I feel like the terror I feel is so powerful and even though things are generally okay, my mind is melting. Today I've been detached, like I'm not here, and everything around me feels like it doesn't exist. It's like a comfortable feeling, numb but weighing me down. Yesterday I was in tears, just completely hopeless, and today I am not all there in my head.

I don't know much about these feelings, all I've done my whole life is just try to get through them and just be tough. But since I am learning I need to address these strange feelings in order to heal, I have to tell you guys.

Wishing you all a happy day!

 

[ladee]

I've xperienced this kind of terror and felt like my mind was leaving. And you are pysicall sick which takes so much from our body and eats what little energy we have.
I can' remember if you are in therpy, if so, please call your T today.

If you feel you need to go to the hospital, then do so.

It is terrifyng what PTSD does to us.
You are not alone. Hope you get some relief soon.
Sending gentle hugs.

 

[freebird]

Thanks @ladee

 

[8888]

So sorry to hear you are hurting. Thinking of you. :hug:

 

[freebird]

Thank you @8888

 

[freebird]

Last night dh and I had to stay up late to do some important calls because of the time difference in the US, and I was actually able to do it without having so much anxiety and panic, because I didn't feel so alone. This call was very important too so thank you so much for being here and taking the time to listen, all of you.

The past two days have been hell, but I slept better last night and I'm feeling a tad better.

I realize now I really can't do it alone. My friend told me that depression is like a rainy cloud. It could stay there for 2 weeks, or even just an hour. But you always need an umbrella until it blows away. You guys are my new umbrella:hug: