Feeling Very Hopeless

[Nicole0317]

I feel very hopeless right now all my symptoms are just getting worse! Nothing is getting better! You know it really kills me that I don't think my parents beleive me...if you've read my latest posts then you know what I'm talking about.


A poem: Hope Breeds Eternal Misery

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[hodge]

I'm so sorry for how you're feeling, Nicole. I wish there was something I could do or say to help you feel better.

 

[KwanYingirl]

Nicole, hang in there. It's so easy to slip into melancholy. The mind can transmute negative emotions. Is there anyway you can distance yourself from your family just for a break? I bet your parents are shocked and in denial. That doesn't mean they'll not proceed to acceptance at some point. It doesn't help you though. I really think you need a good support team. Psychiatrist, therapist, rape counselor, us.

 

[Kailani]

One moment at a time. Parents can be pains. I ignore mine when they are out of line. The best revenge is success

 

[Nicole0317]

Nicole, hang in there. It's so easy to slip into melancholy. The mind can transmute negative emotion...

Yea I have a therapist and I plan on talking to my youth pastor at church soon...but that's about it but I can't really distance myself from them and I love them to death I really do but I don't get how they just idk I finally get the courage to tell them and when I do that it Dosent seem like they believe me I mean they haven't even said the words we believe you without following with the words as long as your telling the truth or dumb questions like are you sure it happened? Are you sure your fear isn't making it all up? Are you sure it wasent mutual etc.... And there is more to it then that but I just don't feel like typing it all but you know what they say about expectation it is the root of all heartache...
And I feel like they are belittling everything he did just because he's their son...

 

[Changing4Best]

I would try to purposely look for anything in my life that is hopeful or gives me hope, and focus my thoughts on that. Also, trying to be around anything that gives you hope or is a pleasant distraction might be of help. Are there any people in your life that you enjoy being with? Try to make arrangements to go somewhere to be with them.

When I have negative emotions, I like to read, either magazines or books like biographies. These distract me enough, usually (as long as I can focus on them).

 

[Nicole0317]

I would try to purposely look for anything in my life that is hopeful or gives me hope, and focus my...

Well my parents said that no ones aloud to go anywhere to anyone house and no ones aloud to come to our house until CPS comes and talks to us and launches their investigation because they don't want anyone finding out because they don't was to ruin my brothers reputation........ And I try to do things like reading but it's really hard to focus on the book because I'm always re-playing what my brother & cousin did to me in my head or dissociating or panic attacks etc....you get my point but yea sometimes that helps

 

[Changing4Best]

I understand. I feel for you!