Fight Or Flight In Sessons

[Punky143]

The last few sessions I've had with my T, I end up wanting to end early and run out. There are different levels of severity; sometimes I've dissociated so badly I "wake" up and have no idea what's going on and the room becomes very small and someone inside is telling me to get out. My T knows and has helped me. Other times less severe, I shutdown and want to be alone and a part is telling me to go. I get why I want to run. Its the inability to handle raw emotions. But it doesn't make it feel any less. In the 10 years of seeing her, not once have I ever felt uncomfortable, if anything it was the opposite. Back then, my trauma history was hidden deep deep inside....

 

[Muted]

Hang in there @Punky143 ... I had my first all out panic attack with my t present a couple of weeks ago and it was quite the experience. I told her I was fine, but I didn't feel fine at all. I've always felt more than 100% safe with her, but during this attack, I didn't feel any safety in her presence or in her office. I felt terrified.

It's likely that you're getting into deeper issues. I've also experienced at least once where I want to get up and run out of her office. Maybe you need to do that in order to feel free to do so...

 

[Freedomfighter]

It is horrible to live through a panic attack. So many of the underlying issues of a panic attack are not known to the patient. Once the panic is recognized and the patient begins to reason while collecting real information that helps them to determine what is going on then the patient often feels foolish, not sure why he or she reacted so strongly.

I wish I knew how to mitigate a panic attack before I get one, whew