Sufferer Finally! Finding Freedom

[Godfirst]

Hello! My name is Pat. I was diagnosed with bipolar/PTSD in 1999, due to the residual effects of being sexually abused by my older and only brother at the age of 10 years old. I am very glad to be here, due to the fact that on 5/9/2014 I attempted to take my life, at the age of 48 years old. I feel so blessed that my Higher Power saved me.

I have an only child, a young man who is 25 years old and loves me to death. Also, he is my whole world. Up until a week ago I was still having a cordial relationship with my Mom, although she never got the help I needed and she swept the abuse under the rug so that her oldest child and only boy would not get in any trouble nor face any repercussions of what he did to me. I was the baby of the family and I had an older sister who did nothing to comfort me. I have been the only child that has been there for my mom when she suffered heart failure in 1994. Only a week ago I finally decided I am cutting ties with both my mom and sister. I stopped interacting with my brother years ago. I got tired of putting up fake appearances.

All my life I have felt like it has been me against them and I have finally had enough. At 50 years old I am finally engaged! It took me this long to find a man I could trust.

Thanks for allowing me to share!

 

[Iamsensative]

Beautiful! Congratulations for moving so far and finally finding joy. I am not there yet but I hope to be someday. I have so many good things in my life, just trying to stop the trauma from stealing my future.

 

[joeylittle]

Hi, @Godfirst - welcome. I'm glad you are here :)

(For the sake of readability, I'm going to edit your message to remove the additional capital letters and parenthesis - please use regular punctuation from now on. Thank you!)

 

[LostGentleman]

Welcome to the MyPtsd Family!!
:joyful:

 

[EveHarrington]

Welcome to the forum. :)

 

[Iamsensative]

Thank you