I have nightmares mostly. I go through periods of them where I then dread going to sleep because of them. Last night I stayed up till 2 even though I was exhausted and then woke up at 6:45. I also will get what I call moments during intimacy. I will all of a sudden freak out and feel like I am somewhere else and that it is not the person I love with me but someone else and I want to push them off me. I cry and then curl up into a ball. I don't really like to call them flashbacks because I am not thinking it is the man that raped me on top of me but that it is some stranger and they are hurting me.