Food Is Difficult And Is A Trigger

[katapuss]

Hi Seychelle,

I hadn't really thought about food being a trigger for me before but I think it probably does figure somewhere in my eating habits. My experience of food was this:

Stepmother used to make me eat certain foods she knew I didn't like, like raw black pudding sandwiches, haslet, burnt toast and marmlade. She knew I didn't like them but I had to eat them anyway. Like some of the others here I too was watched and pressured into eating everything all up. Pot noodles were the worst because she used to put pepper in them. I would have the pot noodle and two slices of bread and I would use the bread/butter to cool my mouth down after each mouthful of noodle. I always ran out of bread before I ran out of noodle which always left me with a mouth on fire.

Also Saturday mornings they would go out before I got up and I was too afraid to do myself food and so I would be starving to the point of feeling sick until they came back and made dinner. I wasn't allowed biscuits or pop they were hers ( I used to sneak swigs of pop when she wasnt there!)

She once had me peel spuds ready for dinner whilst they were out but I cut them the wrong? way and ended up being scolded for it. It sticks in my mind!

 

[katapuss]

"This reminds me of a weird habit I had in my teens. I'd get little bits of kleenex tissue or pieces of paper and ball them up and chew on them and eat them. I stopped once I left home. " Seychelle

OMG I used to do this and still do sometimes.

 

[Deleted member 541]

Eating things *other than food* is called PICA Disorder. Check it out...

 

[trial'n'error]

Ooh crap, when I was a kid like 7 or 8 I used to eat paper and pencil wood all the time. I just remembered this for the first time ever. I think my parents took me to the doctor... I also bit my fingernails until they bled. I was seriously anorexic by age 16, same time I began drinking heavily following a creepy sexual assault when I was 15. Went from 160 to 79 pounds in two years. I was never taught any (!) manners and often times we were given meat and had to eat it without being told what animal it was. Our relatives would hunt and give us food and that's what we had to eat. Since mom was starved as a child she overfed us and we were all fat as little kids.

Food is not a trigger for me per se right now but I control my food strictly and keep my weight below 115... if it gets above that I cut my food intake. I have been overweight "yo yo" style several times as an adult.

Have to think more about this one... Thanks for the thread Seychelle...

 

[Seychelle]

Eating things *other than food* is called PICA Disorder. Check it out...

I just googled it. PICA doesn't feel very familiar to me - the causes don't resonate at all.

I think the habit started when I was being starved - ie it was a way to feel slightly less hungry.