I am struggling very much right now with a kind of superstitious indecision. My adrenaline will spike and I will just sit around freaking out because I am convinced my day will go differently depending on whether I check my email before or after I brush my teeth. Given those conditions, it is of course really really hard to make myself stop obsessing and just do something, even if I have things I really need to do.
Today my anxiety never subsided, really. I have still been scared and unsure all day, and I feel like I am acting strange in public and so my words come out funny. Even though I don't feel at all victorious, I still know that I was able to do things today anyway, some of which were really intimidating. But I wanted to set a good example for myself. I am not yet kind enough to myself to let the power of that sink in, but I am trying to remind myself that it's there anyway.
Today my anxiety never subsided, really. I have still been scared and unsure all day, and I feel like I am acting strange in public and so my words come out funny. Even though I don't feel at all victorious, I still know that I was able to do things today anyway, some of which were really intimidating. But I wanted to set a good example for myself. I am not yet kind enough to myself to let the power of that sink in, but I am trying to remind myself that it's there anyway.
