Getting Better But Not

[Deleted member 10686]

I feel stupid bringing this up because I am on meds that do help, I'm bipolar and aware that things could be much worse, so I shouldn't complain about feeling depressed and si if its not rock bottom, right? Idk. Lately I've felt this constant pent up energy in my chest, feels similar to anxiety, and the urge to cut is strong. It's especially bad at night when I feel like I'm trapped in my head and can't get out, and it feels like the only release would be to ... Self harm.. To release all the horrible energy in me. I haven't done it, because I forget to buy razors and then find myself razor less when I need them.so I'm laying here dying from the need to cut. I am already on tons of meds and feel there's not a lot more meds can do for me. Maybe I'm just being a baby, I've been more depressed than this before, I should be able to handle it. I really can't think of anything else to try that would help besides cutting, and that's not even an option right now, so I'm going crazy In my head.

 

[ms spock]

So are there any distraction techniques that work for you forwardmotion462?

 

[ms spock]

Do you do 5 minutes of compassion per day for yourself forwardmotion462?

 

[Deleted member 10686]

Do you do 5 minutes of compassion per day for yourself forwardmotion462?

Actually no I don't. 5 minutes doesn't sound like a lot, but I don't even give myself that much

 

[ms spock]

Actually no I don't. 5 minutes doesn't sound like a lot,

Are you at a point where you would be willing to do from 1 to 5 minutes of compassionate type of thinking about yourself each day?

You could google compassionate thinking, mindfulness, dialectical behaviour therapy (DBT), cognitive behaviour therapy (CBT) and you can write out a sheet of compassionate thoughts about your self and read the two or three pages, either silently or out loud each day. If 5 minutes is too much start at 1 minute and build up. Baby steps!

Some of the meditation sites have guided imagery as well or meditation talks on youtube might be helpful.

If you can't do it or you find it hard. Have compassion, that at this time you are finding it hard to have compassion for yourself. And say soothing things that you imagine a really nice person would say to you or what you would say to soothe another person.

This is not another thing to do to beat the living crap out of yourself with - it is a practice gets it happening and you don't judge how well or how badly you do it - you just do it and feel pleased with your self for doing it.

I hope that makes sense.

 

[Brenton]

I feel stupid bringing this up because I am on meds that do help, I'm bipolar and aware that things coul...

I know how you feel. I get that thing in the chest that feels like death, and its scary. Its good to know I'm not the only one, and I hope it helps you too.

Brenton