Goal For The Day

[MissMacD]

Today I trudged through a snowstorm (nothing new, I live in Canada) to the grocery store. My diet has suffered horribly this winter as I have been dealing with my trauma and recovering in therapy. Today I bought a ton of fresh produce. I now have a bowl of fruit on my kitchen table with 4 different types of fruits. I am more likely to eat them if I see them every day.

I bought a bunch of fresh veggies. I am going to cut up some celery and carrots and put them in a container of cold water so I have healthy snacks with instant access.

I have gained a lot of weight in the past 6 months. I've been off work and under a serious amount of stress and have eaten a lot of processed food. Since starting back at yoga I have become more aware of my body and what it needs to be nourished. My goal is to lose a bit of weight. I am at 155lbs (5 ft 6). I am just on the border of being overweight. I don't need to be skinny I just want to feel better in my body. I'd be happy to lose 10lbs. 20lbs would be great. I am going to simply take care of my body and see what happens and be more focused on how I feel and less focused on what the scale says.

I trudged uphill with 35 lbs of groceries in a blizzard for 2km so I am going to relax for the evening and prep my veggie snacks.

 

[Deleted member 10686]

My goal is to allow myself to have a good time at the drum circle I am going to, staying in the present moment.

 

[MissMacD]

I woke this morning heavy with burden. I have been asked to face the scariest person in therapy - the woman who beat and tortured me for six years. Today I went for a walk to the grocery store and got buttermilk to make homemade veggie dip (it was so delicious). During my walk to the store I evaluated how I was feeling and realized I have been avoiding her. I wrote part of my letter to her just now (part of therapy) and I am going to go to a yoga class this evening to help me process her further. I bought myself a coconut water for yoga tonight. That is self love :happy:

I can feel the start of depression but I am not going to let it get me this time. I am going to fight to keep healthy.

 

[MissMacD]

Went to yoga tonight even though I didn't have the energy. Now home relaxing with my dogs and enjoying a bowl of homemade soup.

 

[MissMacD]

My therapy appointment got canceled today so I spent the entire day volunteering at the food bank cooking for the staff and giving the volunteers breaks. Many of the people who come in do so with very heavy hearts. It's nice to point a smile in their direction and help them understand that there is nothing wrong with asking for help. Help makes hopeless things bearable.

I am home, exhausted from putting a full day in at the food bank. Now relaxing and going to bed early as I have a volunteer shift at the yoga studio. Sometime this week I have a job interview by phone. It's all slowly coming together after months of unraveling and falling apart. It's easier to start with an empty bobbin than to try and carry on with a full one that is burdened with tangles.

 

[MissMacD]

Spent the morning at the yoga studio. Came home in the mid afternoon to have a snack and see my dogs and then went back for a class. Now I am at home resting and having another snack then taking my dog for a walk to visit a friend. Getting out of the house really helps me, some days it is really hard. Today was really hard. One day at a time, if that's too much one minute or second at a time.

 

[MissMacD]

Spent the afternoon walking around in the spring weather. Went to a thrift store and bought myself a few things. Signed up to buy a food basket (its a communal bought vegetable and fruit program that buys at wholesale). Made homemade tabbouleh and now am at home relaxing for the evening.

 

[MissMacD]

Went on two long walks today. One to go help at the food bank and another to take my dog to the park and drop off some books. I have a job interview Tuesday and a potluck tomorrow.

 

[amethist]

To get the new rotary drier up and all the washing done.

 

[MissMacD]

Rode my bike to the library to return books then went to the supermarket to pick up a few things for a potluck this evening. Despite my anxiety I know that I will be fine because I always am in social situations. I haven't realized until now how much I thrive in the company of people - but they have to be the right people. The wrong people suck away my energy.

 

[MissMacD]

My social event last night was a huge success. I am officially on the road to recovery. I have a job interview on Tuesday, tomorrow I am volunteering at the food bank. My week is full. I am hoping but not expecting to get a job by the end of the week.

 

[SweetPeaandSunBird]

Prepare something healthy and inviting to eat for dinner. (I've been in a dietary slump lately.)