Goal of The Day-Challenging Your PTSD

[ms spock]

This getting out and about and having a life is a real challenge.

I am feeling insecure. I was feeling so excruciatingly insecure. Then a friend returned a call and that was a pleasant chat about getting together next Wednesday. LIght and easy but oh so nice and I felt so much better afterwards. The connection was nice.

I have had a weepy moment and almost cried at Still Life Drawing but I kept it together.

So I am a bit all over the place - upset, vulnerable, insecure, weepy, okay, happy to have contact with people, insecure about having contact with people, worried that I am trying to hard and dissociating, feeling like I am doing okay, happy that I am going to three social contacts in the near future and so forth.

I have had a very social day and and have had lots of contact with people. I have managed that very well though I do feel insecure about it.

 

[ms spock]

To start living every day rather than dying each day

 

[Britt.f7]

Ms Spock, that is exactly how I have been feeling lately. Need to get past that dying so that I can truly live. It really shouldn't be so hard. I wish there was a switch.

 

[ChavaRo]

In class. I have no clue what's going on.

Goal #1 - breathe.

Goal #2 - don't cry.

:(

 

[Britt.f7]

Chavro, I've had that happen to me. It's a horrible feeling, especially if called upon. Knowing you know your stuff, but for the moment, for whatever reasons, you forgot. Happened to me throughout my schooling life. I'm afraid to go back to school because of it.

I'm sorry you are going through this.

 

[71nothing]

I am happy that my developing discipline and daily routines are paying off.

It is taking a lot of concentration and focus but I look forward to them becoming habits!

Me too Ms. Spock! My new routines of going to exercise classes are so helpful. I actually am looking forward to it and I miss it on days I can't go or there is no class.

Tough goal for this weekend. My goal is to out with an old friend who is visiting from out of town (that's not the hard part). While out, my goal is to only have 1 or 2 alcoholic beverages and not get to a point where I lose control and drink too much. I'm really nervous about it so that's all the more reason I just have to do it!

 

[winterose]

Today got some stuff done though it felt like moving through swamp muck....trying to hold on.

 

[ms spock]

I want to feel like I am connected. I want to feel like I belong. I want to not feel so lonely in myself despite having a fair few people around me in my life, many who are quite nice to me.

 

[ms spock]

To move beyond what I am feeling now. To move beyond what I am going though now.

 

[ChavaRo]

Tomorrow's challenge for myself: get started on the withdrawal process for college

 

[ms spock]

I want to do my study sessions.

 

[WillThereBeCake]

I called the Animal Control on my neighbors.

Good for you! Being a voice for those that can't speak for themselves is a very noble and brave thing to do.

Way to Go Winterose!