Goal of The Day-Challenging Your PTSD

[Britt.f7]

I had to tell the med nurse that I could no longer afford Abilify and that we would have to quit it, sensibly. I know he wants me to continue it, but I don't think he could, or should have, argue with me over the reason. I was very matter of fact, this is what we have to do. I'm not thrilled but I had to do it. Last time I let him talk me into samples. No more.

 

[untiltoday]

What's left of my day (taking it easy today):

1. Find one more thing to eat for "lunch".
2. Get dressed.
3. Walk laundry down to car, and most likely pass by college kids that I avoid (same age, but triggering).
4. Take laundry to sister's, and watch a movie with her.
5. Bring laundry back home, most likely passing by college kids...
6. Deciding on a proper dinner and winding down.
7. Try to push through my fear of neighbors hearing me use water for a bubble bath (No real reason, I just know they'll know "she's taking a bubble bath, well..."
8. Tuck myself in early for bed.

***Wow: first time I actually listed steps, but I just realized that what I call "taking it easy" is not exactly taking it easy. Eye-opener.

 

[ms spock]

To manage my emotions and be with people. I did really well.

 

[Britt.f7]

A rude customer at the deli counter challenged my ptsd with his rudeness. I felt so sorry for the clerk though. I just told her I was fine, so that she could finish with him and get him out of her vicinity and mine. I walked away but there are things I wished I would have said, like calling him on his rudeness. I'm sure that would have backlashed on me. I will just have to believe I handled it appropriately to avoid any escalation by the man.

 

[ms spock]

@britt There is value in the strategic retreat.

 

[EverOnly358]

@Britt.f7, I agree with @Ms Spock, it's not worth your time or energy to engage with rude people, if you don't have to. The best thing you can do sometimes is to just ignore them. I hope you didn't let one rude guy cloud your day. You deserve a nice, calm, happy day! :joyful:

I'm just trying to rest and recuperate so I'm feeling 100% again as soon as possible... So I'm watching stupid movies and eating pasta for dinner. (Oh, the carbs, the evil, evil carbs! ;) But I LOVE pasta. :hungry:)

 

[ms spock]

I am challenging my thoughts.

 

[EverOnly358]

My goal is to rest and relax and maybe have a little fun today, so that tomorrow I can get back on track. I'm going to try not to worry or feel guilty or stress out about things. We'll see how that goes. :confused:

Oh, and I did rest and recuperate yesterday... and I do feel better today. :joyful:

 

[ms spock]

I am getting my medical tests done.

 

[Britt.f7]

Forcing myself to not crawl back into bed, which is what I would really like to do. I know some of this, if not all, is because I did not take my medicine that helps me be alert. I am really trying not to let that gray day out there take me down with it.

 

[ms spock]

@Britt.f7 Do you have a list of things to do on these occasions?

Good on you for fighting against it. You are on a quest. A quest to keep the gray day away. I hope you have a trusty and noble steed to ride on.

 

[ms spock]

To cross things off my list. To write a more comprehensive list. To ring about the biopsy if they don't ring by 12pm.