God I Hate Stupid Family Drama It Triggers Me So Bad

[munkinmama]

Ok I am so ready to scream. I was on my Facebook that was a big mistake. One of my brother who always is drama posted this :
"Some bastard comes at me with a knife and tries to kill me. The damn cops don't care and arrested me, the whole thing got me thinking and I realized how alone I really am. Everyone in my life has excuses on why they are too busy to have a coffee, hang out of just pick up the phone. The only time I hear from anyone is if they want something from me I just wish things were different"

Now I feel for him but I have tried to be there for him only to have him stab me in the back more the once. Oh my god my dad is so damn obsessed with him it is sicking. My dad was more focused on my brother's two older kids to the point he was more obsessed over my niece then my nephew. He ignored my kids. My brother can no wrong. If you try to point out certain things about my brother both my brother and my dad will freak out and go after whoever is not taking their side. I try to remain neutral but that means I am the enemy, Oh and forget trying to set boundaries the moment you do you are against them. I tried telling them I can not handle much and I am easily triggered also I have some mobility limitations but to them those are excuses so I give up. I have tried to be there as I said but it is so damn hard,I hate being triggered and I hate the damn guilt trips.My Therapist told me to not focus on what is being said by certain people like my dad, brother, my abusive ex and my ex's dad. It is so hard having contact with people who constantly trigger me.

Ok time to cuddle with Jellybean this has upset me and I was having a good day....grrrrr

 

[KwanYingirl]

I wish you and Jellybean could move away and get some peace. Facebook is such a trigger for me because people post very sad things about abused dogs and it breaks my heart. If someone needs me they have my phone number.

 

[munkinmama]

Oh I will be moving but not for another 6 years. That is when my fiance and I planned to get married after all my kids are 18. My ex who is a huge trigger well he is really difficult I mean he will not sign the kids' passport forms because he thinks if I take just one I will not return. I am like we have 3 kids why would I take off and leave the other two makes no sense. When I go to LA to visit my fiance I feel safe and at peace. I do not feel judged like I do when I am at home. When my plane lands at home I instantly feel a weight being placed back on my shoulders. It will be a long 6 year but I know I can do it my fiance is an amazing person.

 

[Deleted member 1860]

If his profile is set to public and that post is set to public and his profile is set to be able to be searched by search engines....well lets just say someone could find out who you are. Even if all of the above aren't true, Facebook privacy is a joke, so you may not want to directly quote anything from there, in the name of keeping your identity private.

 

[munkinmama]

oh that is right I was too upset and forgot. Thank you for that reminder.

 

[Ladyghosthunter]

I had to dump my dysfunctional, narcissistic and abusive family for many reasons including religious abuse, physical and mental abuse, you can almost name all of what has happened to me. I call my family "ex-family" because they are. I let go of them over 2 years ago and unfortunately, I saw my ex-Dad post a like on something a friend of mine posted on her Facebook. The trigger of his narcissism became too much that I had to tell my friend that I don't want any of my family to find out what I'm doing, where I am, what's going on, nothing and dumped her. The rest of my friends know that they either dump him or I dump them.
What my ex family did to me was something that I have to live with the rest of MY life, not theirs. They don't care, they don't want to care because I don't have any children; I'm just a nobody for them and will forever be a nobody to them. What they said to me the last time we spoke was it. If you're family is full of drama and just toxic, just delete them and let them go. Delete them from your Facebook, and think of yourself first!!!

God bless you, In Nomine Iesu Christi Amen!