Hey-I'm not sure what to say in an introduction topic, so...I guess I'll just tell you my story?
I can't even remember exactly when I started having my hallucinations. I, personally, call them Nocturnal Hallucinations, because they used to only occur at night. I'm on medication for them now-but they still terrify me.
In every hallucination I had, one man was always present. I named his Jason and (no offense to anyone with the name) but now the name itself scares me. He would always be there, torturing me physically, mentally, emotionally. Nearly every night I had to watch my family and friends being slaughtered in gruesome ways, sometimes by my own hand. Other times it would be me that was being killed. I...can't really describe how terrifying they were, because it still scares me to just think about them.
I was admitted to a mental hospital on February 25, 2007 ( i think ) and was given medication to stop the hallucinations from happening. But now they've returned, in a sense- in the form of nightmares that i have every night.
I haven't been officially diagnosed with PTSD, but I've had a few people tell me that they think I have it...I just don't know what to do. I feel like I'm going to explode.
Can someone help me?
I can't even remember exactly when I started having my hallucinations. I, personally, call them Nocturnal Hallucinations, because they used to only occur at night. I'm on medication for them now-but they still terrify me.
In every hallucination I had, one man was always present. I named his Jason and (no offense to anyone with the name) but now the name itself scares me. He would always be there, torturing me physically, mentally, emotionally. Nearly every night I had to watch my family and friends being slaughtered in gruesome ways, sometimes by my own hand. Other times it would be me that was being killed. I...can't really describe how terrifying they were, because it still scares me to just think about them.
I was admitted to a mental hospital on February 25, 2007 ( i think ) and was given medication to stop the hallucinations from happening. But now they've returned, in a sense- in the form of nightmares that i have every night.
I haven't been officially diagnosed with PTSD, but I've had a few people tell me that they think I have it...I just don't know what to do. I feel like I'm going to explode.
Can someone help me?
