Got Triggered By Radio Interview, This Morning

[therisa]

This morning, the local CBC Radio One had an interview, with a victim of extreme violence, by her date. A very prominent national host, on CBC Radio One. The violence described triggered memories, I had suppressed for decades, until today. My brother is trying to break down my bedroom door, which I had barricaded, against him, but fails and gives up. My quivering body is leaning against a bedroom wall, as tears flow down my face. Even now, I feel the panic and fear that gripped me, that afternoon. I thought, I had dealt with all of my violent memories, which surrounds my brother and I.

 

[Deleted member 19804]

I am so sorry you're going through this. I can imagine it must be very difficult and frustrating for memories like that to surface, especially when you thought you'd processed them all.

I cannot offer you much advice, other than to take good care of yourself and talk about it with your T and/or a good friend. Sending you a hug if you'd like one :hug:

 

[therisa]

Thank you, @Snowwhite . Have written about it, in a poem, as part of my processing it. Also have to talk to friend about it. Just want to memories to disappear, like yesterday news.

 

[Intrepid]

How awful. It's hard when something hits out of the blue like that.

I thought, I had dealt with all of my violent memories

I lost hope of ever having everything dealt with. If it isn't big awful memories coming up, its these little ankle biters. After years of getting surprised with violent memories, I'm getting pretty used to it happening. I've integrated enough, over time, that anything new that comes up gets integrated much easier into the whole horror show. (That is not to say that there isn't something lurking, waiting to knock me on my ass. Scary thought, that.)

Anyway, wish you the best.

 

[therisa]

Thank you, @Intrepid . My friend told me, I am getting better at dealing, with things like this, but still, I lost a day, to it.