Grounding Techniques

[Gs172003]

Thank you :)
I feel like I've just read and dissected 50 books in 5 minutes....almost Like a hang...

I understand. Been there. It. Sucks. But you made it!

 

[Pixielicious]

I understand. Been there. It. Sucks. But you made it!

I feel like I'm sitting on my brain, squashing it, thumping it to make it obey me... does that make any sense? :D
But it feels all mushy and battered lol

 

[Gs172003]

I feel like I'm sitting on my brain, squashing it, thumping it to make it obey me... does that mak...

You seem like you are doing alot better

 

[Pixielicious]

First time EVER, I've experienced this.....so,so,soooo exhausted. But body is very relaxed, no shaking, no crying, almost... 'high' endomorphine perhaps ?

 

[Pixielicious]

You seem like you are doing alot better

MUCH better....And all this without any drugs, pills or alcohol.....I'm stunned tbh

 

[Gs172003]

MUCH better....And all this without any drugs, pills or alcohol.....I'm stunned tbh

That's how I do it when it's a bad one.

 

[Pixielicious]

That's how I do it when it's a bad one.

I hope I can do it again, the next time.......I'm trying to figure out what exactly did I do differently this time.... I Remember repeating words out loud over and over as I was writing.... My Brain felt like it had hands on them trying to pull it apart from all directions... But I kept on repeating out loud what I wrote, with music blasting in my ears....I wonder what happened? Why did the endomorphines kick in?
Where's a brain expert to explain this to me when I need one eh? :rolleyes::joyful:

 

[Pixielicious]

Uuuuurrrrrggggghhhh....... I neeeeeed aaaa neeew bRaInZ...... Zombie Pixie. :laugh:

 

[One step at a time]

Now again, it never ends.. Just comes whenever, and I don't know why... But this writing is my only output right now to try to fight against this nightmare I live in, I'm too tired to dance now, haven't slept for over 38hrs too scared to close my eyes, so so scared, just crying feeling so terrified and wanting to die... I Hate these flashbacks i hate my PTSD i hate what I've become, I hate this fear this terror this danger that is in my head cos it's not real right??
It's not real right?? I am so so so scared....really scared right now omg I just want it to stop

It's starting again... Creeping up around me, wrapping its evil tentacles around me.. I know it's not real, but it is real... It Is So real.. So very real to me and again the intense feeling of fear and danger and dread.. My heart pounding just waiting to be.. I Don't Know, can't focus can't stop can't control it... Write, write, write, right!!??
I will repeat sentences.

These posts are exactly how an oncoming flashback feels to me. They sound like I could have written them. I am sorry you also have this experience, but I am grateful to you for sharing it. I feel less crazy and alone.

It really helped when someone told me, "it is real - it happened - but it is not now." Hard to remember in the moment, but a useful distinction for me.

 

[Pixielicious]

Self talk. Lots and lots of self talk. :)

YOU!!!
The self talk!!
I must have caught a quick glimpse of your post and literally 'obeyed' you....by continually repeating out loud as I was writing .... Hmmmm...... "Mind over matter''....." I think therefore I am"......?.....

 

[Gs172003]

YOU!!!
The self talk!!
I must have caught a quick glimpse of your post and literally 'obeyed' you....

Whatever it was, do it again

 

[Pixielicious]

These posts are exactly how an oncoming flashback feels to me. They sound like I could have...

Welcome to the club of flashbacks, I've also found other members postings, when they're having a flashback or a bad day, helpful too.... No One But another person who has flashbacks can understand what it feels like to be trapped inside one :)
It's a very, dark, scary, terrifying and lonely place....