Hi Kwan Yingirl,
I'm glad that you are feeling stronger again
I've been meaning to comment here for a while.
I live in Britain, but used to be a keen pistol shot until both major political parties here decided to include me in collective punisment...:meh:
It's still worth seeing if you can have a try with a pistol
I'd recommend one to one with someone who does a fair amount of shooting on ranges
and that they start you off with a heavy gun firing mild .22rf loads. I used to have a Ruger Mk1, threaded for a sound moderator, which would have been ideal, the weight soaked up the recoil (recoil and noise come as a surprise to many people)
good ear protection is essential.
if they can give you your first experiences when you are the only people at the range, or even better, out in the woods - so much the better
someone blasting away in the next booth at the range with something very loud, is not a good introduction.
familiarising yourself with safe gun handling*, how to load fire and clear (and clean!) the gun and developing a decent level of accuracy are all good skills, regardless of whether you are ever going to carry.
a .22rf that you can get your hands around comfortably, has a decent distance between the sights (the further it is between the front and back sights, the easier it is to aim precisely) and that is reasonably heavy, makes a good gun to learn on.
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* I find that it is helpful to work on the principal that there is no such thing as an "accident" with a gun - only negligence.
there are people who will introduce friends and acquaintances to shooting; this lady achieved her aim about five years ago, and introduced all of her female friends and family to shooting. From what I can make out from some of the photographs she's posted, she's absolutely tiny
http://thebredafallacy.blogspot.co.uk/