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Like I said, right at the start of this thread - I haven't had a gynea exam in years. My smear (pap), is so overdue, that my doctors have stopped contacting me about it. I know it's wrong not to go. Because I should take care of my physiacal health, but right now, I can't and won't face it. It will have to be a goal for the future.
I probably just say it, as it's something I can't face right now. It's so much easier just to bury my head in the sand. Yep - I need to take a good dose of my own advice.... but seriously, just thinking about it turns my stomach, brings on palpatations, and very sweaty palms. :eek:
And it's absolutly normal what you feel. It's called fear/panic, whichever term you choose. As I said to WonderingWhy a bit earlier, you don't have to do it right now. Not even tomorrow or the day after. The idea is to keep it in mind as something that is necessary and as something you will be dealing with at one point. If the thought scares you, then just think about it until it doesn't sound so scary in your mind. Then say it out loud until it doesn't sound so scary. And then you'll know you're ready at least to try and make an appointment. My idea is that if we set goals but forget about them, they'll come back to bite us. And that's why I was insisting on keeping it in mind.
It gets better in time, trust me. I got over the panic. I still feel uncomfortable, but I can go. So it does get better in time. If you face it, it passes. Demons only hang around us when we don't face them.