Honestly had enough. Poured love, time, energy, thoughtfulness, money, understanding etc into my ex partner. Trusted her words that I was her soulmate, the person she had waited for her whole life, the person who understood her like no other. And then became dust. Given my all to others my whole life. Worked my backside off for clients who are demanding. Poured every bit of energy I had into trying to be a good and supportive and loving partner. Right now am actually hoping that the coronavirus grips and takes me. I have had enough of people who blow up your phone with thousands of messages of commitment and love who then bail over some stupid simple thing. Promise they will never do such things - tell you you have their heart and to be gentle with it and then smash yours to pieces. Honestly sooner I'm out of this world the better.
What sickness does it take to tell your partner that your daughter is growing close to you and that you don't want them hurt - to ask for reassurance of commitment and then to just rip apart those bonds a week later over some stupid small misunderstanding. What absolutely sickness and moral vacuousness does it take. Going from one day sending your partner hourly updates on your daughter's wellbeing after being sick to then making out that in trying to give reassurance of commitment and wanting to just make a little one feel loved on her birthday that that is some obsession. FFS how can someone win trying to fit through the nanometre gap between insecurity (wanting reassurance, comfort and presence) and isolation. Does anyone on this planet actually have any commitment to anything any more or is everyone and everything simply disposable. It's just sick to see photos of people pulling weapons and throwing punches over toilet paper in a shopping centre.
@Freida thank you for explaining things so well! @Wanderlust I have a situation much like yours but I don't consider mine an ex because we have never been in an official relationship he doesn't do them even though he says he wants to marry me some day(just words) I been seeing my guy for 3 1/2 years now and I have come to be okay with it. He uses work as his coping mechanism is not getting help that I know for his combat PTSD but admits to having it at least. I guess what I am trying to say is keep yourself busy have a life you have to decide whether or not you can deal with PTSD having a priority over you for now or for always because it won't change and if he is not in therapy it will be a constant rubber band situation. I just look at it right now as I am free to see whom I choose if or until he decides to get help and enjoy the good times we do have together, not take things personally. If he waits too long and mister right comes along then it's his problem not yours. Its also his problem not yours if he chooses to not be a part of your life because it sounds like you have a lot to offer! Get out there enjoy your life! Sometimes easier said than done when you love someone trust me it has been tough! I do meditation and workout it helps!
I am an Empath and pretty intuitive. I think we could use a little of this. Not sure if this is a good thread for it but as a supporter who has had some trauma(prior abuse marriage)as well. I am finally getting both sides.
What sickness does it take to tell your partner that your daughter is growing close to you and that you don't want them hurt - to ask for reassurance of commitment and then to just rip apart those bonds a week later over some stupid small misunderstanding. What absolutely sickness and moral vacuousness does it take. Going from one day sending your partner hourly updates on your daughter's wellbeing after being sick to then making out that in trying to give reassurance of commitment and wanting to just make a little one feel loved on her birthday that that is some obsession. FFS how can someone win trying to fit through the nanometre gap between insecurity (wanting reassurance, comfort and presence) and isolation. Does anyone on this planet actually have any commitment to anything any more or is everyone and everything simply disposable. It's just sick to see photos of people pulling weapons and throwing punches over toilet paper in a shopping centre.
@Freida thank you for explaining things so well! @Wanderlust I have a situation much like yours but I don't consider mine an ex because we have never been in an official relationship he doesn't do them even though he says he wants to marry me some day(just words) I been seeing my guy for 3 1/2 years now and I have come to be okay with it. He uses work as his coping mechanism is not getting help that I know for his combat PTSD but admits to having it at least. I guess what I am trying to say is keep yourself busy have a life you have to decide whether or not you can deal with PTSD having a priority over you for now or for always because it won't change and if he is not in therapy it will be a constant rubber band situation. I just look at it right now as I am free to see whom I choose if or until he decides to get help and enjoy the good times we do have together, not take things personally. If he waits too long and mister right comes along then it's his problem not yours. Its also his problem not yours if he chooses to not be a part of your life because it sounds like you have a lot to offer! Get out there enjoy your life! Sometimes easier said than done when you love someone trust me it has been tough! I do meditation and workout it helps!
I am an Empath and pretty intuitive. I think we could use a little of this. Not sure if this is a good thread for it but as a supporter who has had some trauma(prior abuse marriage)as well. I am finally getting both sides.