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[Springer80]

Me too, on a smart phone! how about doing things you can genuinely enjoy? I went to Ibiza once cos I felt pissed that Id missed out on so much and wanted to let rip. But as you may guess I found it stressful.

 

[skeenr]

It's kinda complicated. I have ptsd, and anxiety disorder, and dysthymia. So I am nervous to do things, then when I do I don't get the normal level of enjoyment out of them. Then that adds to my anxiety to try new things in the first place. Then my girlfriend and I argue about me not doing things. So it all compiles into this mass of helplessness.

 

[Springer80]

I do know what you mean. If your body was a tuning fork you cant currently handle anything that overly affects you. Its not your fault, its neuro-physiological. You will find an approach that works. You gotta approach yourself softly softly. There are things that could work, like a picnic and a few beers on the beach, or camping etc

 

[Springer80]

Signing off for the.night skeenr, its early morning here. Take it easy.

 

[skeenr]

That would be nice if I had someone to go with? Like my girlfriend doesn't do spontaneity, but I only get bursts of sudden inspiration to do things like that, and I usually get shut down when I try to get her to tag along.

 

[skeenr]

It's only 9:30 pm. Here. See you around.

 

[Springer80]

Hi I find it interesting that not only does your girlfriend not do spontaneity but critises you for not being able to go out then shuts you down when you do ocassiomally suggest stuff??

However, that is not the point, the point is you said that those ideas sounded nice. They sound relaxing dont they and enjoyable. A little of what you need. Thats what I meam about finding things which suit you. It doesnt matter that you cant do whatever it is you drag yourself too and attempt to look happy and engaged. Ptsd or not different peolple like different stuff, you may have a medical reason behind your choices but no.one is entitled to know that. You just like star gazing and go.out of town for all they know? But its not a charade because if its actually doing you some good youll enjoy.yourself.

I know you dont want to be on your own but lets face it, you are a changed person and to certain extent the path you need to take wont change however much you wish or struggle otherwise.

Could your girlfriend not be brought round, if you explained a little?