Had session this morning and it went OK. We went through procedures around me going more into CSA and what would require safeguarding referral and I'm not so worried about that side of it anymore but I did mention how I felt the fact that me not wanting anyone else to know about any of it makes me think that other people will think I'm making it up. Which obviously isn't true....I just know of all the trouble it would cause and I don't think I would ever be ready for that. She didn't really say much about that. Just an "of course not" to if she thought it made it sound like I was making it up. Has anyone else gone through life without telling anyone of CSA, at all? I mean, I've told my best friend but, even her....she doesn't know who they are. It was a hard one and even she said I seemed "low and far away", which I think was just due to not sleeping/racing heart issue last night. I feel like I have to email to explain/justify myself. Why I'm choosing not to tell anybody or name them. I hate how sessions make me overthink sometimes. I told her how I think I need to push myself more and I think going back to the beginning if it all, is going to be easier than the here and now and she agreed....said she thinks it was be easier too, because it's in the past and not happening now. I'm going to get some bits wrote down for the next session now, whilst I'm thinking all this.