Poll Has PTSD Caused You To Attempt Suicide?

[angrypanda]

Came so close numerous times. Gun, knife, pills in hand and ready, but stopped. Reckless/manic behavior TONS!!! So many moments I wanted to die and did stupid dangerous stuff totally willing and ready to die. Mountain hiking in the snow, alone, without a coat. Threw myself down a ravine, reckless driving, walking in dark/dangerous places alone ready for a fight. Guardian angels working overtime! I've become more aware of these tendencies and catch myself MUCH earlier. I end up grounding myself to my house and reach out to a friend. So, technically only 1 intentional attempt.

 

[Tinyflame]

Twice, a long time ago. A few close calls. Looks like 75% of us who answered have.

Sweet but exhausted Guardian angels @angrypanda ! :notworthy: :angelic:

 

[greenleaf]

Thoughts and feelings but no attempts, including very strong feelings as a kid. The "dissociative parts" cognitive/model approach helps me figure things out better now; my adult part has for many years actually worked to include positive things in my life that I feel responsible for (like cats, friends, conservation work) -- those didn't solve my problems but they helped, esp. when I couldn't really figure this stuff out but knew there was a problem. I've also worked to put myself in better situations with good people but really had no conscious understanding of the structure of my internal onion.

I think that there are "parts" in there that use or have used S.I. (in various of that acronym's uses) to cope, and other parts sorta know that and try to buffer "me" and have a "real life". Um, finally really able to be working on this, very luckily have a good T... :whistling:

 

[Ed Norton]

PTSD hasn't because it would not be an attempt, in my case, it would surely have worked. My dog saved me.

 

[killronaldreagan]

I put many times many ways. I have permanent physiological damage as a result, for example I hung myself from my bedroom ceiling, woke up and had to figure out how to get myself down (climb the rope, grab behind the knot, the one on the side touching your neck, then pull in such a way that it loosens, you'll fall to the ground). That gave me brain damage (apoxia), then I used to try to go to sleep with a bag over my head most nights, there was overdosing on tranquilizers, drinking bleach, etc. None killed me, all resulted in permanent physical damage

 

[Tinyflame]

Ya mine resulted in physical damage too.

 

[Deleted member 29920]

No but like others I have had ideation since childhood. Fear there's no afterlife has stopped me attempting. Hope I'll get well has kept me going this far.

 

[Tinyflame]

Mine (SI) only came (started) after my failed attempts to cope after the ptsd started. I was a rather optimistic little kid.

 

[7Cs]

Not many times but several times.

 

[Deleted member 28403]

Yes... A lot

 

[Deleted member 34424]

Yes, once and I really wanted to but didn't move, so that doesn't count, does it?

One time at around 10 I had a butcher knife and was going to kill myself but I saved myself. The second one was I was in a ball 5 years ago after huge triggers and wanted to die and was thinking of slitting my wrists but it didn't happen because I was on the phone with a friend.

 

[Unknown Victim]

I've done many high risk adventures and some suicidal and some thinking it would lead to suicide. The first attempt I think was 12 when my dad went on a military mission and I swallowed a bunch of pills. One stupid thing I did I bought a gun and I started shooting and hoping someone would shoot me dead. The good thing about the gun it led me to the PTSD discovery. People don't understand that I have a mental illness and some of crazy things I believed in, and now I look and say "how stupid". Surprisingly, I never trusted anyone, and there is no one out there that knows me.