Was linked to this, and read some of everyone's replies.
I really do not know if the trauma made my "abilities" stronger, as far as I know my mother claims I would talk to ghosts in my bedroom at a very early age. 4..5..? Really young. Before It Got Worse. I don't think at that time I was mentally creative enough to uh, develop any kind of imaginary friend that was THAT talkative, and or alter at that point in my life. I just "get stuff" and again with me too- when I'm upset equipment and machines go haywire, things won't work. Phone won't make calls. Comp locks up. We have had trouble in the past with machines at work just *not working* and the computer system locking up when I was upset. There's been times when my episodes- while I would struggle through them at work- would have the entire power go off in the building (this happened in 2015- which I keep stating that was a very bad time for me and I was trapped in a very similar abusive situation which contributed to my c-ptsd.)
I can see ghosts, I've had ~that feeling~ about stuff before, dreams sometimes happen. I get stuff- spooky stuff- and I owe it to the Irish side and the Fox Tribe blood that runs through my veins. My mom claims her grandmother was a "witch" and well. I don't think my abilities come from my abuse. I may listen to "pings" more than usual now to avoid getting hurt, which is all apart of being hyperventilate. But *shrugs* then there's the spirit guide stuff too which I babbled about in my other post on DID.
There's something about me, it's there, but I'm not gonna cash in on it or owe up my trauma for any of my ~powers. I don't know maybe it did help, maybe it didn't. All's I know is that it's there and I just try to live my life as simply as I can with it with out it causing me too much paranoia (one reason why I haven't touched the tarot cards in over a year).
I read in new agey books about the "Dark Night" some people go through and get abilities, but I've had enough "Dark Nights" in this life time. I don't want or need anymore. Because Dark Nights aren't just one night for me. They're usually years and years of utter and complete despair, ya know? I have *something* but it's just, again after 2015.. I'm taking a break I guess. Or done. Haven't decided. Stuff happens spooky wise, stuff will happen, and I co exist with it and..that's that? I think.
Again I live in a very historically haunted part of the eastern side of America. So, ghosts and spooky stuff ain't nothing new to me. Even if I wasn't abused and had all that stuff happen I'm sure I'd still be like this. Had the trauma centered around ritual abuse NOT have happened, I might be some kind of practitioner, I don't know. But right now I just... wanna.. figure my own stuff out.
Sorry thing got long and revived and old thread.