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@adriftatsea I empathize completely and know in my heart that this is the case. I have a deep connection with him and know he was suffering to keep balance. I reached out yesterday saying I was thinking about him, hoped he had a great time with mutual friends for Chris Eve and hoped he was well. I signed my text with a X (hug)
To my surprise he sent me back a cheery text with a smiley face, an lol and the written word 'hugs' at the end. It was shocking at first to me honest. My 1 reaction was anger :/ Why is he so happy?? I'm miserable! But a quick kick in my own as# and I became happy for him. I was happy he was excited, I was happy he was not spending the night alone and I was happy he responded well to me. Our mutual friend shared a moment outside with him and he asked about me (her and I are very close, he knows this). It gives me hope. I have to allow him the time he needs to sort his feelings out, now that a few major stressors are out of the way I hope he calms and sees things clearer. I am less stubborn than a week ago, I made the first move. Now I have to sit back and wait for him to contact me next time. My only fear is the shame and guilt so many suffers feel, that he probably feels and wether or not he can get past it and reach out. I guess I leave it up to fate. If he knows me then he knows I love him and forgive him and want him and can get past this with him. We need to communicate more, I tried many times but it only pushed him away. I think it's his turn. I hope he will.
To my surprise he sent me back a cheery text with a smiley face, an lol and the written word 'hugs' at the end. It was shocking at first to me honest. My 1 reaction was anger :/ Why is he so happy?? I'm miserable! But a quick kick in my own as# and I became happy for him. I was happy he was excited, I was happy he was not spending the night alone and I was happy he responded well to me. Our mutual friend shared a moment outside with him and he asked about me (her and I are very close, he knows this). It gives me hope. I have to allow him the time he needs to sort his feelings out, now that a few major stressors are out of the way I hope he calms and sees things clearer. I am less stubborn than a week ago, I made the first move. Now I have to sit back and wait for him to contact me next time. My only fear is the shame and guilt so many suffers feel, that he probably feels and wether or not he can get past it and reach out. I guess I leave it up to fate. If he knows me then he knows I love him and forgive him and want him and can get past this with him. We need to communicate more, I tried many times but it only pushed him away. I think it's his turn. I hope he will.
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