Sufferer Hello, 28 uk new here - lonely and having existential crisis

[PerfectlyUnknown]

Hello,

I’m Elle, 28 years old from the uk. I’m open to messaging and making friends with anyone over 26 years old.

I’ve been officially diagnosed with C-PTSD, recurrent depression and cannabis dependent.

I strongly believe I also have(Quiet) Borderline personality disorder, DPDR and I’m not sure whatever else. I think my symptoms aren’t strong enough to be considered an illness

I’m currently really lonely and going through an existential crisis and it’s really bewildering and I’m at a lost but I just know I don’t want to be alone or by myself going through it and I am. Which sucks.

I’m currently high right now and depressed and speculating if I have OCD, narcissistic and sociopathy traits too. I’m really not doing ok.

I posted another post in the dissociation thread and I’m waiting for it to get approved. I hope it does because I’m in need of advice and I seriously have no where else to turn. Nobody but those who have experienced it gets it.

Other than that, I enjoy music mostly pop, indie pop, r&b, hip hop, female rap, musicians and some other hyper pops and music in other languages.

I really enjoy collecting stickers and enamel pins, I enjoy art of my favourite cartoons or anime or of anything beautiful really. I suppose that’s really subjective. I enjoy fantasy (maybe that caused that dissociation LOL that’s a joke, a bad one)

I enjoy tv shows more than films but equally media is great. I enjoy (audio)books. I’m not sure what else to include.

Hope you are all well and eating something nice. I am hungry but I can’t think of anything that could satisfy me.

p.s does anyone with dissociation feel like an alien when they *feel* their emotions, feelings and sensations being cut off? I do!

 

[Sideways]

Welcome to the forum!

 

[gorgonzola]

Greetings, PerfectlyUnknown!

Hope you are all well and eating something nice. I am hungry but I can’t think of anything that could satisfy me.

I had a slice of lemon loaf cake earlier today. Played havoc with my blood sugar but sometimes it's just worth it in order to have some lemon cake in your life.

p.s does anyone with dissociation feel like an alien when they *feel* their emotions, feelings and sensations being cut off? I do!

Happens too fast for me to make notes really. In my experience dissociation is inconsistent with hypervigilance, and sometimes when re-associating the HV doesn't kick in immediately, which is the best (although perhaps my hedonistic bar is very low compared to the general population).

 

[Rose White]

Welcome to the forum, hope you find support you are looking for

 

[PerfectlyUnknown]

Hello thank you all for the warm welcome! I don’t get to link my other post but here it is. Recently diagnosed CPTSD - Derealisation is making me lose my mind. Advice needed and wanted please. Existential crisis.

Do any of you think it’s related to OSDD-1A&B?

 

[PerfectlyUnknown]

Welcome to the forum!

Thank you!:)

Greetings, PerfectlyUnknown!


I had a slice of lemon loaf cake earlier today. Played havoc with my blood sugar but sometimes it's just worth it in order to have some lemon cake in your life.


Happens too fast for me to make notes really. In my experience dissociation is inconsistent with hypervigilance, and sometimes when re-associating the HV doesn't kick in immediately, which is the best (although perhaps my hedonistic bar is very low compared to the general population).

Lemon cake sounds really nice. I’m glad you were able to enjoy it.

Oh wow, that sounds a little bit better than what I experience.

 

[gorgonzola]

Oh wow, that sounds a little bit better than what I experience.

It's less often than I'd like, but it has happened. Well, once.

 

[WinnieThePoohChris]

Welcome. Its sometimes easy to label yourself and you will be your worse critic.

Focus on what you do like and enjoy maybe. Important to eat, if you dont fancy anything in particular something comforting or easy?