Sufferer Hello Everybody

[Upside Down Eagle]

I think I browsed for Dutch forums but it's a long time ago... many were geared towards PTSD from profession (like firemen or policemen), there was no forum for PTSD sufferers in general as I recall.

I ended up finding this one and I have been on it happily since four years ;) People on here are very open minded and I get great feedback on the things I struggle with. You'll probably experience the same!

 

[sun seeker]

Some people talk about angels or a guide that is with you. I don't want to be unkind but I feel like there is no one for me: no guide, no angel.

I don't know why it works for one person and not another. And there are certainly times I can't feel that presence, but only brief moments when I have stopped believing it is there. Why? I don't know. I know some people stop believing because of trauma, while others start believing because of trauma. And all sorts of other reasons.

What I find difficult too is that because of what happens or what we do with those thoughts when we work, it makes me unable to work fulltime or work 'more normal hours.'

I don't know if I will ever be able to work fulltime. Maybe. At the moment, about 15 hours a week of paid work would be reasonable. I don't know if people think I'm lazy. There really aren't many people who know many details of my life, so it hasn't come up. I do know it frustrates me how little I am able to do.

Don't you sometimes get tired of doing all these things for your inner child? Maybe that's with me because I'm still a bit resistant... ?

I don't, because I do things that work. When I've tried doing classic inner child exercises like guided meditations where you see your child self and give her all the love and reassurance she needs, or talk to her by taking turns writing with your dominant and non-dominant hands... those things I get tired of doing because I don't see any immediate results. I'm a practical person. What I have figured out for myself helps me feel better right away, so I don't get tired of doing it. If you are resisting, maybe it's time to look at why. Some resistance is to doing things that would be good for us but are uncomfortable in the short term. Other resistance is telling us what we are trying to do isn't right for us.

Anyone have any good tips on how to tell the difference?

 

[Yvy]

Pff that's a difficult one with the resistance. It makes me think of when you're tired some people say 'then sleep, your body knows how much sleep it needs.' well NO, not at all. I can sleep so long and then I'll feel even more horrible. Think that has more to do with depressed feelings or not wanting to be present anymore... Anyway. And when you are tired, when to chose between exercising and doing stuff or really just rest? It's difficult to find that balance. I sometimes notice that I'm extremely tired because I'm really sad and am pushing that away...

I don't know how it works with the inner child either. Maybe I'm to impatient, I want a 'quick fix' for feeling better instantly. But you say the things you do for your inner child work quickly. Did they work quickly after doing them for a while or instantly? Maybe it's my negative punishing voice that comes up with the resistance. I have a hard time with selfcompassion too etc.

Being able to know when resistance isn't right for you: I think you'll be able to do that if you're grounded and know yourself better and can listen to your intuition and your feelings? I'm not that far yet... I don't know what I feel most of the times and am in my child role most of the times, not grounded and living in the past. and the worst thing is that I don't even see it myself often: it's so normal. But I'm getting there. (thinking positively haha)