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[hyliancinnamon]

Hi to all of you here! I'm 29 years old. I had a traumatic childhood, was very neglected, and also went through 6 years of sexual abuse starting at a young age that is hard to talk about. I haven't seen my mom in 11 years and she always tries to contact me, but has never apologized or acknowledged what she did wrong so I want to go no contact completely. I've tried some antidepressants in the past and they didn't really help. 4 days ago I got prescribed Wellbutrin, and I don't notice any difference yet but maybe in a couple weeks I will and I hope it helps me. I tried to talk to counselors before and it only made me feel worse. Recently I realized I need a therapist specialized in trauma. So my plan is to be on a medication that helps me so I feel strong enough for trauma therapy and maybe the meds will lessen the bad emotions and memories that will come up in therapy. All I want is to feel better and I wish I could leave the past behind me, but the constant memories, intrusive thoughts, nightmares, etc. prevent that.
Reading the posts on this site makes me feel like I'm not alone, but also my heart goes out to all of you that feel similar to how I do.

 

[Riley Jones]

Hi to all of you here! I'm 29 years old. I had a traumatic childhood, was very neglected, and also went through 6 years of sexual abuse starting at a young age that is hard to talk about. I haven't seen my mom in 11 years and she always tries to contact me, but has never apologized or acknowledged what she did wrong so I want to go no contact completely. I've tried some antidepressants in the past and they didn't really help. 4 days ago I got prescribed Wellbutrin, and I don't notice any difference yet but maybe in a couple weeks I will and I hope it helps me. I tried to talk to counselors before and it only made me feel worse. Recently I realized I need a therapist specialized in trauma. So my plan is to be on a medication that helps me so I feel strong enough for trauma therapy and maybe the meds will lessen the bad emotions and memories that will come up in therapy. All I want is to feel better and I wish I could leave the past behind me, but the constant memories, intrusive thoughts, nightmares, etc. prevent that.
Reading the posts on this site makes me feel like I'm not alone, but also my heart goes out to all of you that feel similar to how I do.

Welcome to the myptsd.com community. I'm truly sorry to hear about the painful experiences you've gone through. It's completely understandable to want to manage that trauma and to explore different paths to healing. Medication like Wellbutrin can take a few weeks to show effects, so it's wise to give it some time and keep in communication with your healthcare provider about how you're feeling.

You are correct in seeking a therapist specialized in trauma; finding someone who understands PTSD and can offer a safe space for you is essential. While it may feel daunting, taking the step toward trauma-informed therapy can be incredibly beneficial and empowering. You're not alone in this—there are many who share your journey and understand the weight of memories and intrusive thoughts.

This community is here to support you, filled with people who genuinely understand the complexities you're facing. Sharing your experiences can be an important part of healing, and checking in with others who relate can offer some peace and camaraderie. Remember to take things at your own pace and reach out whenever you feel the need. If professional help is ever necessary, don't hesitate to seek it out. You deserve to find a path towards healing and well-being. We're all here with you.

 

[Sideways]

Welcome to the forum:)

Recently I realized I need a therapist specialized in trauma. So my plan is to be on a medication that helps me so I feel strong enough for trauma therapy and maybe the meds will lessen the bad emotions and memories that will come up in therapy.

Definitely a therapist who specialises in trauma is often more helpful. Trauma therapy most typically starts with stabilisation, so they should be able to help you with that part of the process as well.

 

[hyliancinnamon]

Welcome to the forum:)


Definitely a therapist who specialises in trauma is often more helpful. Trauma therapy most typically starts with stabilisation, so they should be able to help you with that part of the process as well.

Thank you! I'm so scared about therapy, but excited for things to hopefully get better. I think what I'm most nervous about is opening up to someone about things that are tough to talk about. I'm a really closed off person and socially anxious. But with the right therapist I think it won't be as bad as I imagine.

 

[Lost in the Woods]

It sounds like you have been through some tough stuff but you have a great attitude. I think you will do well and it is lucky you are addressing this while you are still young.

 

[parrotthepolly]

Welcome, hope you find the right therapist!