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Hi everyone!
My name is Rose and I am 34 years old. I have PTSD stemming from a lifetime of trauma, most in my childhood, the rest created by some poor life choices. I don't blame myself, because I know those choices were a result of undiagnosed PTSD.
I currently take one medication, an SSRI/NRI prescribed my by family doctor in conjunction with a psychiatrist. I do not attend counseling or therapy. Most of my life, counseling has been very difficult for me. I have had several counselors use my words against me in court (during a divorce) and when I was a child, the counselors would tell my story to my abuser. They did not protect me as they should have. So for me counseling is not a safe space. I truly hope this changes for me and I am able to trust a tiny bit because I know if I can get past the BS in my head, it will be very helpful.
I have a service dog that I trained myself, a 2 year old German Shepherd named Ruger. (He is in my avatar.) My dog has changed my entire life and made it possible for me to venture into the world. This past weekend we attended a huge music festival with over 40,000 people and lots of noise and nonsense.... and we both did great. Only a few moments of panic that he quickly attended to. He wasn't even a tiny bit distracted by all the people (most of whom were drunk and trying desperately to distract him and pet him.) This is something I could never have done six months ago. When Ruger came into my life, I thought he would be a pet, a buddy to hang out with. (He flunked out of police K9 training.) But he immediately took it upon himself to be my service dog. He is incredible. When I realized what he was doing and how he was doing it, I started task training him, as required by law, and now six months later we are the best team you can ever imagine.
Anyway, I look forward to getting to know everyone here and meeting some new friends!
My name is Rose and I am 34 years old. I have PTSD stemming from a lifetime of trauma, most in my childhood, the rest created by some poor life choices. I don't blame myself, because I know those choices were a result of undiagnosed PTSD.
I currently take one medication, an SSRI/NRI prescribed my by family doctor in conjunction with a psychiatrist. I do not attend counseling or therapy. Most of my life, counseling has been very difficult for me. I have had several counselors use my words against me in court (during a divorce) and when I was a child, the counselors would tell my story to my abuser. They did not protect me as they should have. So for me counseling is not a safe space. I truly hope this changes for me and I am able to trust a tiny bit because I know if I can get past the BS in my head, it will be very helpful.
I have a service dog that I trained myself, a 2 year old German Shepherd named Ruger. (He is in my avatar.) My dog has changed my entire life and made it possible for me to venture into the world. This past weekend we attended a huge music festival with over 40,000 people and lots of noise and nonsense.... and we both did great. Only a few moments of panic that he quickly attended to. He wasn't even a tiny bit distracted by all the people (most of whom were drunk and trying desperately to distract him and pet him.) This is something I could never have done six months ago. When Ruger came into my life, I thought he would be a pet, a buddy to hang out with. (He flunked out of police K9 training.) But he immediately took it upon himself to be my service dog. He is incredible. When I realized what he was doing and how he was doing it, I started task training him, as required by law, and now six months later we are the best team you can ever imagine.
Anyway, I look forward to getting to know everyone here and meeting some new friends!
