I had a very traumatic event 3 months back. (this going to be a long text, so I'll do a tl;rd at the end)
felt like I couldn't return to my usual self for a month, then I felt normal for few weeks and then started to feel not so normal again, it feels like depersonalisation, where I don't feel I am inside this body, distances don't feel the same and I'm not the size of my body. (I feel this sounds stupid, but I have to think it doesn't, right?)
I had these panic attacks where I thought I am crazy and in psychosis and that I am forever ruined and this feel last for eternity, then I have a weird feel for 30 minutes and then feel completely normal.
I feel I don't have as much emotions or thoughts, but I don't feel angsty or depressed ( I used to be depressed for about 5 years, did nothing about it, but then again, it wasn't diagnosed so people probably think it was just teen angst.)
took awhile to learn that these panic attacks don't last all eternity and I can feel good after they have passed. I can stop thinking when they happen and breath calmly, but that part still needs a bit work.
Today I realized they happen with the same patterns, from the same thoughts and the same actions or sights I see. it's a great relieve if these are infact just PTSD symptoms and I'm not a crazy person. I go to work and do my arts and crafts as usual now.
I feel I should go head on to face these panic attacks, think about the event, but I feel it might make the panic attacks worse? I read that they wont and it is encouraged, but I feel the best when they don't happen for days or when they happen mildly on the morning and the night, which I also read happens.
This is quite new still, so should I wait and let them fade so they don't indeed get worse like with some of you, I want as much advice what to do at this early stage, because I feel they gradually got worse and now that I know how to cope with them they are way milder, probably obvious, but yeah, I don't like things to get worse.
When I do "try to face it" I go for a while in the panic world and then chicken out, because I feel the condition might get worse.
TL;DR: I maybe have PTSD, it's quite new, I want to not let it get worse, should I deal with the trauma, stare straight to the fear or wait and let them fade? Is therapy required? I don't really feel like going in one.
Also sorry if this somehow offends someone, I do not know if this is PTSD, but it just gets triggered and I get a panic attack similar to the traumatic effect. I read few months might not be enough for them to appear?
felt like I couldn't return to my usual self for a month, then I felt normal for few weeks and then started to feel not so normal again, it feels like depersonalisation, where I don't feel I am inside this body, distances don't feel the same and I'm not the size of my body. (I feel this sounds stupid, but I have to think it doesn't, right?)
I had these panic attacks where I thought I am crazy and in psychosis and that I am forever ruined and this feel last for eternity, then I have a weird feel for 30 minutes and then feel completely normal.
I feel I don't have as much emotions or thoughts, but I don't feel angsty or depressed ( I used to be depressed for about 5 years, did nothing about it, but then again, it wasn't diagnosed so people probably think it was just teen angst.)
took awhile to learn that these panic attacks don't last all eternity and I can feel good after they have passed. I can stop thinking when they happen and breath calmly, but that part still needs a bit work.
Today I realized they happen with the same patterns, from the same thoughts and the same actions or sights I see. it's a great relieve if these are infact just PTSD symptoms and I'm not a crazy person. I go to work and do my arts and crafts as usual now.
I feel I should go head on to face these panic attacks, think about the event, but I feel it might make the panic attacks worse? I read that they wont and it is encouraged, but I feel the best when they don't happen for days or when they happen mildly on the morning and the night, which I also read happens.
This is quite new still, so should I wait and let them fade so they don't indeed get worse like with some of you, I want as much advice what to do at this early stage, because I feel they gradually got worse and now that I know how to cope with them they are way milder, probably obvious, but yeah, I don't like things to get worse.
When I do "try to face it" I go for a while in the panic world and then chicken out, because I feel the condition might get worse.
TL;DR: I maybe have PTSD, it's quite new, I want to not let it get worse, should I deal with the trauma, stare straight to the fear or wait and let them fade? Is therapy required? I don't really feel like going in one.
Also sorry if this somehow offends someone, I do not know if this is PTSD, but it just gets triggered and I get a panic attack similar to the traumatic effect. I read few months might not be enough for them to appear?
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