Sufferer Hello, I Am New Here , Cptsd

[purpleswirled]

Hello. I am a female in my 30s living in the UK, trying to untangle some of the issues regarding my past (abuse as both a child and adult, and chronic serious illness). I was formally diagnosed with a personality disoder (borderline pd) many years ago but more recently a therapist and some others who work in mental health have told me that BPD can be a form of CPTSD. I have read a bit on the subject and the symptoms and experiences seem to fit with that. I have questions and need a safe place I can ask them as the therapist I have currently unsettles me a bit- I don't feel safe with her talking about this.

My interests are guinea pigs, music, good books. I live somewhere in the South West of England and suffer a physical disability known as Dystonia. I live with my guinea pigs. It is nice to meet you all.

 

[Friday]

Welcome to the community :)

 

[Tornadic Thoughts]

Greetings and glad you're here. There's also an anonymous section within the forum that you can post in if that would feel even more comfortable. Options are good. I remember posting a response there before I realized what it was and my post came up under some weird name with a cartoon and I submitted a help ticket to see what went wrong. lol Learning moment. One of many. :)

 

[Deleted member 34328]

Hello. I am a female in my 30s living in the UK, trying to untangle some of the issues regarding...

Guinea pigs, music and good books...sounds like a pretty good combination :tup:. I like rabbits, canaries, art, music and good books. My bunny's name is Trixie. I got her for Christmas this past year as my old pet passed away earlier 2016.

I would encourage you to consider switching therapists. This is a safe forum and the anonymous options are here as well, but you should have a safe place and person to walk with you. If you are feeling even a little bit unsettled, then perhaps you can discuss this with her, but if not then see what other options there may be for you.

Welcome to the forum. Browse around a bit. Lots of welcoming people.

 

[purpleswirled]

Guinea pigs, music and good books...sounds like a pretty good combination :tup:. I like rabbits, canar...

hi, thank you. It is nice to meet you. Your bunny sounds so cute. I have kept guinea pigs since childhood and i have tw ogo0rgeous female piggies at the moment. They are both 2 years old, and very entertaining. Regarding the therapist, i feel if i bring it up with her that i don't fee lsafe she may say something belittling? i think maybe that is paranoia talking though. i have big issues with paranoia

 

[Deleted member 34328]

Yes, Trixie is shaping up to being quite a character. She's very playful but is starting to show signs of bonding as well. So cute!

You know, I think most of us have difficulty bringing up painful things. Especially to someone who really matters. I would still encourage you to take a chance, but have a backup plan as well. Someone who might be waiting to give you a lift home, some comfort things ready along with a phone number to call. Do you have a trusted friend to just sit with?

Those things are important. For hearty praise or comfort. Have the little gals ready to have a snack and a cuddle. Great thing about pets. They never tell your secrets.

 

[purpleswirled]

My one friend who I can talk to about stuff is having treatment for lukaemia and cannot go out at moment- she has no immune system and in Britain it is cold and flu season. Bringing the guinea pigs may be an option or phoning my mental health crisis team.I don't find it easy to go into details of the abuse though. I have been judged so many times before. I even confided in someone close to me who believd me and I could really talk to until she met my parents and was like "your father is a nice guy- he wouldn't do what you are claiming."

 

[Deleted member 34328]

I understand. It is very hard. Even that's an understatement.

Don't worry. On the forum you share as much or as little as you're comfortable with.

I never thought of taking your piggies with you but why not??? You're paying for the session. You'd be amazed at the things I've taken with me.

Is it possible to email her?

Letting her know how you feel is so important. She's a trained professional. I'm sure she's dealt with this type of thing before.

Her job is to coach you in your healing. She can't do that if she's coming in on an aggressor channel. Your healing and well-being are more important. You need a safe place.

If nothing else, we're here cheering you on.

 

[Adam Fitzpatrick]

Here's the book. Complex PTSD: Surviving to thriving. Pete Walker.

 

[Deleted member 34328]

How are you doing @purpleswirled ? Have you been in touch with your therapist?

Been thinking of you.

 

[Deleted member 38644]

How are you doing @purpleswirled ? Have you been in touch with your therapist?

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@purpleswirled hello I read your posts. are you OK? I see that resources were provided to you for assistance. I am sorry that this has happened to you. I see you think that many were ignoring you but you see we care about everyone on this website. what about support from your family?