Sufferer Hello - I know I need support but I’ve never spoken to anyone but one person about my situation.

[AR23]

Hello

I’m not really sure how I feel about being here, I know I need support but I’ve never spoken to anyone but one person about my situation.
I don’t want to go into detail.
It happened over 23 years ago but to me, it’s like it happened yesterday.
I was just 16.
I saw things I wouldn’t wish on my worst enemy.
Bodies.
They were everywhere.
I lost one of my closest friends.
I was badly hurt trying to get away.
I have flashbacks. Every single night.
I’m not ok.

 

[Riley Jones]

Hello

I’m not really sure how I feel about being here, I know I need support but I’ve never spoken to anyone but one person about my situation.
I don’t want to go into detail.
It happened over 23 years ago but to me, it’s like it happened yesterday.
I was just 16.
I saw things I wouldn’t wish on my worst enemy.
Bodies.
They were everywhere.
I lost one of my closest friends.
I was badly hurt trying to get away.
I have flashbacks. Every single night.
I’m not ok.

Hello,

Thank you for reaching out and sharing a glimpse of your situation with us. It takes immense courage to take this first step, especially when it feels overwhelming to talk about your experiences. Your feelings, no matter how complex or difficult, are valid and you're not alone in this.

You’ve been carrying the weight of your trauma for a long time, and what you've described suggests an intense and challenging history. Please know that we're here to support you as you navigate through this. Sharing your story, even without going into detail, can be a powerful way to start processing it and easing some of the burden you’ve been shouldering alone.

Our community on myptsd.com is made up of individuals who have also experienced trauma or who support someone who has. Here, connection is key, and you’ll find others who can relate to what you’re going through. There are various forums where you can share your experiences, ask questions, or simply read about others' journeys. Feel free to engage at your own pace.

While this community is here to support you, I also encourage you to seek professional guidance. A trauma therapist can offer the specialized care that may help you move towards healing.

You deserve support and a path forward that helps you manage the burden of these memories. We’re glad you’re here and understand the bravery it took to reach out.

 

[arfie]

hello ar. welcome to the forum. sorry for what brings you here, but glad you are here.

in my 50 odd years of recovery from child sex trafficking, i have grown utterly convinced that i am only as sick as my secrets. keeping secrets requires me to stay much more involved than setting the truth free. when i set the truth free, it goes on its way and leaves me far more peace and serenity than building prison cells in my mind to keep it confined. i still don't enjoy telling my trauma tales, but i LOVE being able to survive a reminder without the psychotic drama of flashbacks, etc.

but that is me and every case is unique.

steadying support while you sort your own case. welcome aboard.

 

[Dark.Green.Feathers]

I’m sorry for what brings you here, I hope you find something to lighten the load. I haven’t got much but I extend a welcome.

Trauma diary may help you slowly dip your toe into getting things out. Gradually, gradually. I find skirting around topics there eventually leads to it coming out one day, easens the process of it being too horrible to manageable to vent about.
At the very least how it’s hurting me is out there…

 

[Sideways]

Welcome to the forum, glad you found us:)

 

[AR23]

Thank you for the replies and I’m sorry to you all for your traumas.
Much love and thank you again.

 

[PamelaS]

Hello

I’m not really sure how I feel about being here, I know I need support but I’ve never spoken to anyone but one person about my situation.
I don’t want to go into detail.
It happened over 23 years ago but to me, it’s like it happened yesterday.
I was just 16.
I saw things I wouldn’t wish on my worst enemy.
Bodies.
They were everywhere.
I lost one of my closest friends.
I was badly hurt trying to get away.
I have flashbacks. Every single night.
I’m not ok.

I’m so sorry for the horrifying experience that you have been through. Thank you for reaching out and posting. Even this small step is helping you to sort it all out so that eventually you will be in control of it rather than it constantly trying to destroy you. Happy to be walking alongside you through the quagmire. Take one slow and gentle step at a time and find your footing again. Each step may seem hard, but it’s better than staying stuck in the quicksand. Congratulations on taking steps to get out from under it. Cheering you on as you move forward in sorting it out. Be gentle with yourself and keep moving forward at a pace that is safe for you.

 

[SjMel]

Hey,

I'm new here too but just wanted to say welcome.

I think the trauma dairies isn't for everyone. It can be triggering to read through. Well it was for me. Not saying that's a bad thing or a good thing. It's just good to know that some people might be triggered as it would seem people go into details about their trauma. It may be helpful to some pending.

 

[Lost in the Woods]

I think you will find this community very helpful and supportive. I honestly think it has save my life and laughed my healing journey. We are all here for you.

 

[deno]

Hello

I’m not really sure how I feel about being here, I know I need support but I’ve never spoken to anyone but one person about my situation.
I don’t want to go into detail.
It happened over 23 years ago but to me, it’s like it happened yesterday.
I was just 16.
I saw things I wouldn’t wish on my worst enemy.
Bodies.
They were everywhere.
I lost one of my closest friends.
I was badly hurt trying to get away.
I have flashbacks. Every single night.
I’m not ok.

I hear you, and I’m truly sorry you carry this around. What you went through is clearly very painful, and it’s not surprising you can recall this like it’s only yesterday. Trauma doesn’t follow a set timeline, and what you’re feeling isn’t a sign of weakness—it’s a reflection of how deeply this has affected you.

You don’t have to say anything you don't feel you can, but you don't need to walk through this alone either. There are those who know, those who will listen, and those who will believe you. My greatest hope is you find some here, however you need it. Just know you aren't alone, and you deserve support and being heard.

 

[CooCoo4CocoaPuffs]

31 years ago for me. My late teens. Blood, near-death, screaming (mine.) has haunted me and eaten me alive for a very, very long time. Not as much, now, but echoes of it. More horrors inflicted on me by my Momster. PTSD is living life on hard mode AF.

 

[AR23]

31 years ago for me. My late teens. Blood, near-death, screaming (mine.) has haunted me and eaten me alive for a very, very long time. Not as much, now, but echoes of it. More horrors inflicted on me by my Momster. PTSD is living life on hard mode AF.

I’m so sorry