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[Nyctimus]

Hello everyone,

Young lady here. Had PTSD for years following multiple rape traumas. I never took therapy, but just tried to soldier on, as they say. I thought I had healed myself years ago. After 5 years symptom free, a bad work environment where I was sexually harassed caused me to have a relapse. Im afraid to say more for fear of retribution. I've received and official diagnosiss and started therapy and it's EMDR and I'm finding it quite difficult... I always buried the pain and now I'm struggling with feeling vulnerable for the first time in years. I cannot yet be angry at my assailant. I don't know what to do. I feel like my life has stopped. Hope this forum will help with some support, as I don't feel like I can talk to many in my environment about this.

Thanks.

 

[Ka-9]

Warm welcome, and greatly appreciate you sharing your experience.

I think it's terrific you sought therapy/help you much deserve. I've also found emdr difficult - not my favorite trying to dig up occurrences my body worked years to bury, but it does get better!

 

[Deleted member 33052]

Welcome, Nyctimus, I'm glad you found us. Here, you can say whatever you need to. We are here to support you.

I've been doing EMDR for about a year now, and while I never look forward to it, I always feel better after doing it. Make sure your therapist is trained in EMDR. S/he should have given you some coping strategies to help you through the sessions.

 

[EveHarrington]

Welcome! :)