Lost,
I just wanted to say, yes, read the document above. That's really good advice. Then think about... do you have flashbacks? Hypervigiliance? Triggers? Other signs of PTSD? Not to self-diagnose, which is a bad idea... but, because the doctors sometimes get it wrong and you have to advocate for yourself. I was diagnosed as depressed for years and years and everything they did to treat my depression made everything so much worse. But they were the experts, so I kept following their advice. And all the while, no one was dealing with my PTSD, including me, so it got worse and worse, too.
So... perhaps the doctors are right, and it's just depression. Try anti-depressants. They didn't work for me, but I know they work for lots and lots of people. Get therapy for depression. Tell your therapist about your issues... and perhaps, with some more information, your therapist may realize you have PTSD or may be able to confirm for you that you do not.
The thing is... you're struggling, you're going to doctors, you're trying to identify what's going on. No one does that just for fun! There's obviously something going on that's not good, and you want to fix it and you're reaching out for help. Those are all very good and brave things. Okay? Unfortunately, dealing with doctors can be hard... so you have to advocate for yourself. That doesn't mean fight necessarily... hey, maybe they are right, it's depression and some anti-depressants plus some therapy will work. If so, great! If not, keep reaching out for help. Keep asking questions. You know how you feel. Fight for yourself.
I hope this helps, you're not the only one who's gone through something like this,
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