I just realized that there is an introductions thread.
So Hello.
I don't know what so say about me, except that i'm here because the trauma in my life never ends. It started with being traumatized by my sister when i was little and notw the shit in my life just keeps happening over and over. Everytime I get on my feet. BAM! I get knocked down again, and then I realize that i was just pretending to be ok.
People have told me that I am strong. Sometimes I even fool myself into believing it. I'm not. im weak. Everytime something new happens, i get retraumatized and fall apart.
I worked so f*cking hard while others tried to hold me back so I could do my dream job. Now I can't do it because I keep having to deal with the shit that all the f*ckin losers in my life did to me.
I just realized that this is more of a vent than an introduction. Sorry. I'm in a funk right now.
So Hello.
I don't know what so say about me, except that i'm here because the trauma in my life never ends. It started with being traumatized by my sister when i was little and notw the shit in my life just keeps happening over and over. Everytime I get on my feet. BAM! I get knocked down again, and then I realize that i was just pretending to be ok.
People have told me that I am strong. Sometimes I even fool myself into believing it. I'm not. im weak. Everytime something new happens, i get retraumatized and fall apart.
I worked so f*cking hard while others tried to hold me back so I could do my dream job. Now I can't do it because I keep having to deal with the shit that all the f*ckin losers in my life did to me.
I just realized that this is more of a vent than an introduction. Sorry. I'm in a funk right now.