Undiagnosed Here I Am. This Is Me.

[MoriMermaid]

Hello everyone. This is the first time that I've reached out for support on a site like this. I'm a survivor of severe emotional and verbal abuse (from the age of 8 to 15) from mainly men and boys, sexual abuse, and troubles involving mental health and the medical system.

A close friend of mine was diagnosed with a terminal illness recently, and I realized that in order to be there for him in the best way possible and to enjoy the time we have is to start taking care of reactions and the past that doesn't belong in my present anymore. There's a lot of triggers from this that I've been experiencing (abandonment, grief, medical, and a couple of others), and it doesn't make for the smoothest of connections. I know that journey is going to be difficult; however, it's worth the battle.

I'm 31 and have been experiencing trauma since I was three years old when my dad left due to alcoholism. I'd like to know if there are others out there like me who could help me begin to untangle all of this while I help myself. Am hoping to find what I need to assist me in the next stage of the journey.

 

[Bliss]

Hello everyone. This is the first time that I've reached out for support on a site like this. I'm...

Welcome!

 

[MoriMermaid]

Welcome!

Thank you. :)

 

[ladee]

Welcome...glad you found us.
Sorry to hear about your friend. And a very loving thing to do in their honor.
To have quality time. And for you to learrn how to live.
Do you have a Therapist? This is always recommended as it is a lot to untangle by ourself.
This is a huge forum, a lot to read..references ect, and people in all stages of recovery
Glad you are here.

 

[MoriMermaid]

I always like to get back. He doesn't know about it yet that he's one of the reasons why. He helped bring me out of this in the first place, and I continued it on. I'm looking into talking to a therapist who specializes in sexual trauma since that's where my most trauma is from. Working up the courage to. Have had difficulties with the mental health system, as I've mentioned. The ones I've met don't notice the effects of early childhood trauma.

 

[ladee]

It can be difficult to find the right T..but sounds like you have a foundation to build on.
Glad you are here.

 

[MoriMermaid]

The right T for the Big T and Little T. Sounds wonderful, doesn't it?

 

[ladee]

Perfect!!

 

[intothelight]

@MoriMermaid Welcome to the forum! :)

I have always thought the best part of this site is being among other members who really understand. I hope you find being here helpful to your own healing.

 

[MoriMermaid]

@intothelight It's like a warm hug, and I like warm hugs. :happy: