Heres My Intro Post.

[BX_JarHed]

ok here is my intro post i am a Former Marine. i went to iraq in 2009 with 3/9, 2DMarDiv IIMEF, came back hypervigilant, anxious, and with an extremely explosive temper. i absolutely hated going to any place due to the crowd size i spent many a day holed up in my barracks room. i am a real person, prior to iraq i never had a problem with big crowds, id go home and enjoy the night life now when i go home i cant bring myself to go anywhere other than a small home. and being in my home its straight lock down. ive been working on my hypervigilance, but one thing i have to point out was how i treated my family since i was in a constant state of hypervigilance accompanied with my explosive temper i became the aggressor i mean full on childish temper tantrums, throwing things, screaming at people, for small insignificant things such as not washing dishes, the way the fridge was setup, things i forgot to do and didnt get reminded about, when i came home from Iraq these were the things that have plagued me but ive been working on my short temper and trying to get things right with my family. one step at a time.

 

[Jimmy1]

Novareality,

Welcome to the forum..
You may have PTSD, but you also have to take into account military conditioning and small team environments.
Think about this........
You deployed to Iraq in 2009. It was you, your squad, and your platoon who relied on each other to survive.
The whole time you were over there, they were your family. You depended on routine, uniformity, and training to survive as well. If things got rough, you used aggression to get you through. Its what we are trained to do.

So you come home.

Now you are exposed to thousands of people. You were probably on leave so the majority of your platoon or company went on leave. Shopping centers are full of loud, rude people with no routine or uniformity. They have no creed. Same deal with your family.
They are just living normally though which is a big stressor for you as its not what you have been used to. So when things don't go your way, you use aggression. Its trained into you.

I am by no means a psych or a qualified therapist, I have just chatted to hundreds of veterans with PTSD.

Can I ask you, and you don't have to answer..... Have you had nightmares and flashbacks to traumatic times????

 

[Lee C]

Welcome mate

 

[Zipperhead]

Come on in

 

[abnvet]

Welcome and Merry Christmas!

 

[EOD96]

Welcome Nova.

 

[Anglesachse]

welcome and merry Christmas nova mate.

 

[Fargo1]

Welcome and Happy Holidays Nova. You have come to the right place at the right time. After reading Jimmy's welcome I have to add this. PTSD or not, finding help now is a godsend. You are still relatively new to the effects of this shit, which means that you can get a grasp on it earlier as well.

Now I am merely a Coastie, but I thought it was "Once a Marine. Always a Marine." So stay the course Marine.

 

[Ned]

Hello Nova, as an expert on hypervigilance I empathise. Start ticking off the knowns.

 

[reddevil1111]

Fargo? Your a coastie? wow you must be tall...They have a requirement , you have to be 6 ft tall incase the boat sinks...

Ahem! Semper Fi Marine! :)

 

[Fargo1]

6'6 1/2" to be exact...means I could serve on any cutter in the fleet! And still able to hunt down druggies in the jungles and mountains of Columbia with you leathernecks!